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when nerys was 16, sceleritas fel first came to her, making those latent urges beneath her veneer of raw impulses and anger known to her. in fact, he encouraged those impulses, twisted her mind until one day she wakes with her parent's, her brothers' blood all over her hands.

from that day on, nerys was no more. it was kira. she didn't deserve the name the parents she murdered gave her after all. over the years, to survive she's become numb — she's become a murder machine, considering it's the only thing that gives her any modicum of emotions. eventually she rises up to becoming the leader of the bhaalist cult and through this, she meets enver gortash — the one person she believed to be her friend, mayhaps even the closest to a love.

kira at some point becomes a paladin of bhaal, swearing the oath of conquest. at this point she's truly numb, dissociating half the time. the plan with the elderbrain at the time was out of a fucked up desperation for freedom.

when orin usurped her position, little did her slaughterkin realize that she set kira free. waking up in the nautiloid with no memories but a vague recollection of her name, and a longing for the moon — she has divine powers and so, by that conclusion she was lead to believe that she was a paladin of selune.

however, when she killed the goblins at the goblin camp she felt something wane — then, the day after murdering the bard, quill, she truly felt the lurching, the pain ... she's broken her oath. little did she know, the oath was not broken for the murder of an innocent bard, it was the failure to conquer the grove.

starting there, she becomes an oathbreaker paladin and feels unworthy of even calling herself a selunite, despite the fact she still longs for the moon. it is only in act ii, when she meets isobel, confesses her sins that she finally allows herself to be selune's faithful. when isobel offered her penance, forgiveness even for confessing how she longed to murder her — that was the true catalyst for her to redeem herself. no matter the cost.

she will not allow dame aylin to be killed — no matter the cost. she will do whatever it takes to lift the curse because she has to, for all the bodies she's dreamt of taking and haven taken.

in act iii, she will refuse bhaal at every turn she could. it would be the most emotional turmoil that tugs at her as the torments get worse, the nightmares get worse, she doesn't sleep for days on end sometimes. after all, she fears if she sleeps, she'll murder a person she cares about deeply.

seeing gortash again stirs feelings inside of her — conflicting feelings. she was lead to believe that she loved him but the idea of being close to him is quite frankly, disgusting to her. she doesn't understand. little does she know, she's a lesbian.

after bhaal exsanguinated her, she spends a few days in bed, catatonic until she finds a little shrine for selune and prays for 12 hrs. she kneels there for hours on end and by the end of it she takes up a new oath of vengeance under selune's name. vengeance felt right to her — so many people she's tortured, killed deserves vengeance and justice; so many people who died for her design and bhaal deserves justice.