Journal #17

day 892:

I finally patched up Reagan's jacket, he’d be so mad the mess its become.. but hey it’s served me well and its not like hes coming back for it anyways.. you know sometimes i wonder if Uncle Reggie found him.. I wonder if Uncle Reggie made it out of the country at all.. but i guess i have to hope he did, that they found each-other.. who knows though.

Fin.

Day 897:

Ive sketched up a few designs for a copper farm, and one for a more condensed iron farm. i wish copper was more renewable but there's no way to manufacture veridian or tuff so unfortunately that farm would only be as efficient as the items you could collect in mass, and even in that point there's only like a 12-30% chance to even get a nugget out of a block and then you need nine nuggets.. at that point it wold be easier to make a drill, i really should have put chests on the elevator when we were making the shaft, it would have collected all those items…

im gonna keep sketching. see if i can come up with something more effective

Fin.

Day 902:

I added some new patches to Kay-nines vest and fixed a few of the spikes on her collar. we don’t go out as often as we used to but I still want her to be safe. I don’t know what I'd do if I lost her too.

I feel bad keeping her down here all the time. She still gets lots of exercise and attention but it still can’t be good for her. I guess that means it’s probably not good for me either. But it’s much safer than up there right now. so maybe it's okay.

Fin.

Day 907:

Josie just told me we’re moving. again. I don't know why this time, she didn’t really stop to tell me before rushing away again. I think things went bad. I knew they would.

I guess I'll start packing. maybe I'll get more information when everyone calms down.

Fin.

Day 913:

I haven’t seen Tyler or Josie in a few days. I'm starting to get really worried. I keep thinking im hearing them, or just hearing yelling but I think its just in my head. I hope they come back soon.

Day 917:

I Don’t wanna be here anymore. It's too hot and loud and cramped and I feel like I’m suffocating under the weight of my own skin. I wanna go home

Day 919:

I’m so tired

Day 922:

Everyone in this house is making me feel insane about being afraid of leaving the base. We live in an apocalypse for gods sake. We have a base that is semi safe, why would I want to put my life on the line to run wild through the city when we are mostly self sufficient?

I know how bad I am at surviving, I mean I barely survived by myself after everything happened and I know I’m not good at watching out for myself. So why would I give up my nice safe home. Why would I want to push the line with people that could destroy us? Why would I want to play with my life like that? With my roomates lives?

They are so reckless sometimes and it scares me. I don’t want to be in danger for being associated with them. And I don’t want them to die on me either, I can’t be left alone again. I don’t know why they don’t understand.

Maybe I’m just too high strung..

I miss Meris..

And I really miss Rae..

I hope they’re both alive. I wish they’d just stayed here so I’d know if they’re safe.

But I get it I guess. I wouldn’t want to stay here either…

Ive been out of commission a few days. Which is fine. Just.. annoying. I feel like I’m not pulling my weight and leaving the other two to do everything. But I shouldn’t push myself too hard, I don’t want to get stuck in the city overnight.

Maybe I’ll try to just help around the base today. That’s a good idea

DZ is dead.

The Mayor executed him for the death of her friend(?) he caused.

We knew this would come soon. But I didn’t expect to watch it happen.

Everyone is quiet now. It’s so quiet that it’s loud. It’s so loud.

It’s too cold

And dz has too many rats

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That can’t be my whole entry. But that pretty much covers everything.

It got much colder overnight. We can’t go out into the city for very long or at least we have to be even more careful than we were before.

Josie Dz and I went out while Tyler worked on our camp(?) fortress(?) home(?). He’s done a lot of work on it it’s looking really good. We lost dz for a while (who knows where he went) so Josie and I were able to talk. We haven’t been by ourselves very much recently, I missed her.

Feels cheesy saying you miss someone you live with. But. You get me

Kay-nine I think is getting restless not being able to do city runs with me anymore. It’s just so much more dangerous I’m worried for her. I’m hoping once the walls go up she will have more space to run. I don’t think she enjoys the rats either. I keep catching her stalking them. She enjoys playing in the horse pen. I need to make the horse pen larger.

I don’t think I’m going to go out by myself anymore. Or at least I need to stick close to home. I’m bad in the cold. I need to try to find new clothes, I don’t have any of my old clothes anywhere. My outfit isn’t.. fit for the cold :/

I’m gonna go get some food and make kay- nine dinner

I am unaware how long i slept. Probably a while, cause when i woke up DZ had collected like 7,000 rats… they kept running over my bed and that’s what woke me up. Not sure how I feel about them. That make me quite uncomfortable the way the scuttle around.

When I woke up everyone else had moved everything from the tower. Waking up and all the beds and chests being removed was really quite worrying. I was almost afraid they had left me behind. But I know Josie wouldn’t do that or at least I assume she wouldn’t.

But turns out they’d actually moved everything to the area I wrote about in my last entry. I grabbed the rest of the stuff and Kay-Nine and we permanently evacuated that terrible tower. The new place is pretty nice, it has a big wall Tyler is planning on reinforcing and lots of space for activities. I was able to start building my machines again! I don’t think I’m going to get very far with the limited supplies we have right now but we will see.

We met three new people, and by met I mean we accidentally walked into their house. Reach, Cella, and a Doctor (I don’t remember their name) Reach and DZ used to know each other? They were in boy scouts apparently. Cella and Reach might be brothers or something, I think they said that. The doctor is interesting, they offered to lobotomize me… which was fun. They all seem nice enough but I don’t think I trust them ofc.

Josie and Tyler decided to start a raid at our home as well. Luckily I was out when it happened. Or maybe unluckily. Apparently it was kind of rough, Josie got downed in once. But they won, I just wish they would be a little more careful.

I’m tried. I’m gonna go to bed

I had to redraw my map of the island from memory since my old one is gone. This will be a place holder until I can find a new one.

Fin.

Inconsistencies

Zombies and skeletons have developed the physical and mental capacity to man and shoot weapons

- was this a reaction to the radiation?

- Are they gaining consciousness or have they not lost it yet?

- Could this be a new breed or mutation?

Zombies and skeletons have been noted to have backpacks or musical instruments

- Are these items they died with?

- Are these items they are collecting?

- Are they now gathering resources

- why?

Dz noted the spiders are larger?

The strange flowers that have appeared everywhere

- They are edible. no notable effects. sweet flavor

- The Mayor says they're the national flower

- Don't remember seeing them before

- Why does she know? Did she have them planted?

- Need to look into more

Why are we alive? how did we get out unharmed and so quickly? why is the radiation so condensed?

- Bad at the airport

- Also bad near ocean

- why is that. what caused almost a crescent of no radiation?

-no other noted places

- need to check around

We've survived again. I wonder how long that's going to last…

I've only seen five people other than the two from our bunker. There's a lot of bodies outside so I can guess what happened to everyone else. I wanted to throw up when I saw so many in a small area. I've seen corpses tossed aside a lot these past years, But these were eviscerated and there were so many.

Josie has been in business mode for the past few weeks and especially all day today, so I haven't been able to talk to her about anything, she was out a lot today or we were in a group. The other two in our group have been helpful enough, I enjoy their company but they can be quite loud.

I went out for a while by myself today for quite a while, I don't super enjoy it but the monsters have become much more dangerous and I don't want to put Kay-Nine in danger. The creatures can now have guns and some of them are stronger and tank more hits (more info later) I don't think the bomb helped us at all I think it might have signed our death warrant.

We have a safe enough place for now but everyone is wanting to move, they're wanting to make a compound in the woods. Maybe I should tell them about the caves down in industrial? Maybe we could work near there, could be a good place near the factories and the wood and industrial? I don't like having to build a new structure, I like reinforcing the old ones.

I need new supplies as well sense we had to leave everything behind and haven't found any old reserves, looks like everything's been ransacked. Going to need to rebuild my machines as well. Just to get my feet back under me. It'll be fine