A Memoir From The Corners Of My Mind.

Some times I worry that you died and woke up in my head.

I know that you’re in there, planting your gardens and paving your paths

I’m existing in a maze of you. Every thought’s been overwritten. The hard drive is full.

Your tea cups have fallen and the broken porcelain is eating away at the soles of my feet as I’m stumbling to the take steps you told me to.

I’m choking on your breath and holding your tongue.

I’m losing feeling in my limbs and my shoulders are crumbling under the weight of the life we’re supposed to be living.

You were the sun and your absence has set my world on fire.

I’ll meet you in the ashes.

I spent most of my life saying that I felt homesick

Even when I was lying comfortably in my bed

Until I met you

All the homesickness dissipated and you were found

Now that you’re gone I feel it all over again

Sick for a place I can’t quite put my finger on because you don’t exist here anymore

My home is somewhere in the stars

So at nighttime

When I look up

I look for you

My home

Some times I worry that you died and woke up in my head.

I know that you’re in there, planting your gardens and paving your paths

I’m existing in a maze of you. Every thought’s been overwritten. The hard drive is full.

Your tea cups have fallen and the broken porcelain is eating away at the soles of my feet as I’m stumbling to the take steps you told me to.

I’m choking on your breath and holding your tongue.

I’m losing feeling in my limbs and my shoulders are crumbling under the weight of the life we’re supposed to be living.

You were the sun and your absence has set my world on fire.

I’ll meet you in the ashes.

I spent most of my life saying that I felt homesick

Even when I was lying comfortably in my bed

Until I met you

All the homesickness dissipated and you were found

Now that you’re gone I feel it all over again

Sick for a place I can’t quite put my finger on because you don’t exist here anymore

My home is somewhere in the stars

So at nighttime

When I look up

I look for you

My home

I kiss your third eye, because I know that it cries

Crystal tears on my lips, let me take the bad trips

I’ll wrap you in my aura, soak you in colors of aurora

We can stay in this space until you feel safe

From lives before, I keep the promises we’ve made, you’ll never be missing from me

I’m beckoned to you like the tides to the moon

You’re my indigo baby

•when I see you it’s just pure bliss