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Fuck canon
*opens ao3*
Tommy: Hold the fuck up.
Phil: ?
Tommy: It's me, I'm the fuck up.
Tommy, voice cracking: Please hold me.
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All I see is angst but I just want them to haunt together đđ

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things Tommy deserves to be able to do
-run his hotel
-have a fun rivalry with BeeNBoo
-be able to talk to and maybe eventually forgive Sam for leaving him in the prison too long
-apologize to and work on fixing his relationship with Jack (and maybe Niki as well??)
-commit tax fraud
-work on fixing his relationship with Techno
-scam a couple people in the hotel
-bond with puffy
-bond with (and maybe annoy) foolish
-work on fixing his relationship with Ranboo
-upgrade the hotel with Sam nook
-agree to fight against the eggpire with his friends (flower power, perhaps?)
-listen to his discs in his bench with his friends without fear of them being stolen
-heal
-live
Also known as things Tommy may never be able to do
oc /j
Iâm sorry but I canât see the difference between the two...
Thereâs something inherently funny about an eldritch god simping over one (1) british man
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Ever notice that it always rains when something bad happens to c!tommy??? was that intentional or???
Remember when people were like headcanoning Tommy's mom being the embodiment of sky or space? It's his mom. She's crying.
OOOOOOOHHHHHHH Sheâs called Clara in alot of fanfiction and is uesually a leasbian or the litteral universe.
okay so iâm literally in the middle of catching up on jack manifoldâs recent stream bUT i am suddenly brainrotting so â¨analysis timeâ¨
jackâs current arc is him realizing that revenge wasnât the answer. he regrets his anger and he regrets that his life was dedicated was killing an old friend. he wasnât happy when dream killed tommy, and he doesnât think he would have been happy if he had been the one to kill him.
heâs still angry at tommy (and he has every reason to be), but the point is that he doesnât think revenge was the answer. revenge wouldnât have made him happy, no matter how it had played out.
now. niki. she hasnât found out about tommyâs death yet, so weâre shifting into â¨combined analysis and theory timeâ¨
i think nikiâs reaction will be a foil to jackâs. i think niki will be overjoyed that tommyâs dead, no matter how it happened. it will be wonderful, it will be interesting, it will be great story telling.
let me elaborate on that. jack mourned the fact that the only thing he cared about was tommy, and he mourned the fact that he lost him. jack mourned losing his attachments. emotionally, heâs sort of lost now, but he realizes that. he values attachments and he values the attachment he had, now matter how toxic he realized it had been.
niki, on the other hand? the last thing she expressed attachment to was lâmanburg. she may not have been the one to blow it up, but she still destroyed it. she burned down the lâmantree, the last remaining symbol of the original lâmanburg, and she did it all without a hint of regret. niki, unlike jack, does not value attachments.
really, the only thing niki still has attachment to is the memory of wilbur, but even thatâs not really an attachment in the same way everyone else on the server has attachments. she misses the memory of him, but the fact that he just,, left her makes her angry. that anger is her driving force and the only attachment she has left. no one else cares more about the memory of a person and the feelings they cause than physical people and physical things. there isnât any other attachment thatâs even comparable.
exceptâŚ
except.
dream doesnât care about anything but the idea of tommy. he only cares about the attachments tommy brings to the server and the fun tommy brings him. tommyâs nothing more than a puppet to him. this doesnât line up perfectly with nikiâs situation, but the the parallels are undeniably.
dream just wants revenge against those who have wronged him. he isnât driven by attachment (though he is still attached to that idea of tommy), heâs driven by revenge.
niki just wants revenge against those who have wronged her. she isnât driven by attachment (though she is still attached to the memory of wilbur), sheâs driven by revenge.
so. in the end, niki should be happy that tommyâs dead, no matter that she wasnât the one to do it.
/dsmp
there's something really worrying going on in this fandom that so many people are still c!dream apologists. it was worrying after exile, it was worrying after doomsday, it was worrying after the disc saga finale.
and it's even more worrying after last night. that their first reaction to someone being beaten to death by their abuser was "well he killed a cat!", try to blame c!dream murdering c!tommy on c!sam, and are consistently in denial of what we're repeatedly shown: c!dream never tried to change
it's worrying how their first reaction was to think about how this affects c!dream. the furthest thing from your mind after witnessing what happened last night should be "oh i wonder how the abuser and murderer is doing?"
it's a scary phenomenon we've seen in many other media (american horror story, star wars, etc), but it's especially scary in the dream smp fandom because the fanbase is so young.
yes, this is roleplay, but the themes they're working with are very real and very painful. the content creators know that and make it very clear who's in the right and who's in the wrong, so why is there so many people who can't accept it?
itâs weird to me that any time something bad happensâ every time c!dream does something bad, itâs always somebody elseâs fault. itâs always tommys fault, or tubboâs fault, or wilburs fault or anyone elseâs fault but the person who actually did it. like they canât,,,,,, hold him accountable for the shitty things heâs so clearly doingâ that itâs shown heâs doing, because; why? heâs so clearly a bad person & c!dream apologists are like âi do not see itâ
okay so thereâs so many people making fun of people for being distraught over c!tommyâs death, and iâm gonna pop in here to say; fuck you if youâre one of the people who are making fun of people for being upset/crying when he died. they literally canât help it, itâs the same reaction youâd have if one of your favorite characters died in a tv show or a bookâ itâs literally scripted. itâs written to make people feel emotions, itâs a roleplay, & youâre just making people feel bad for. what? for reacting the way they intended us to react? mf i bawled when he fucking died, and even though itâs a âbLocK gamEâ iâm allowed to fuckinâ get emotional when one of my favorite characters literally dies đđ
and speaking of c!tommyâs death, iâm gonna rant about why iâm so emotional for a second so yall really understand the Fuck Ton Of Thoughts thatâre going through my head. because i have been thinking these things but i havenât said âem and Hoo Boy.
wilbur & schlattâs deaths, right? they had these deaths where everyone was there, and they got to say their peace; wilburâs death was satisfying to him because he got everything he needed, in his eyes, & schlatt got a moment to confront/curse out everyone who wronged him, but tommy literally only had him & dream in that fucking cell, and he was beat to death. this kid didnât get his peace, didnât get his last fucking wordsâ his last âwordsâ were begging dream to stop. he came to dream for closure and he ended up getting killed, and isnât that just,,,, the most fitting end for him? heâs never gotten anything good; c!tommyinnitâs life has been a route of neverending tragedy and the moment he tries to close the lid, the moment he tries to get closure & live his lifeâ be happy, heâs fucking killed. he wonât ever get to finish his hotel, he wonât ever get to heal fully, he wonât ever get to be a kids because heâs just fucking dead. and at the hands of dream, no less; the man who abused him in exileâ the man who took two of his lifeâs already. heâs dead at the hands of him, in a cell, where his body is probably left to fucking rot & he probably wonât even get a proper burial until the fucking security issue is fixed.
this shit came from a minecraft roleplay, and yet it still is so fucking?? intense?? emotional?? so yes, thatâs why iâm crying over this block manâs death đđ

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......shawty i really canât do this today đ
PEOPLE NEED TO STOP MAKING ME FEEL EMOTIONS
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I think Iâm still in denial