some headcanons for Suguru's bio family? Is he an only child? A mama's boy?
work had me sitting on this ask a little I'm sorry π
- hes an only child, but he did really wish to have a sibling as a kid. his parents did try, but were never able to have a successful pregnancy.
- while he considered himself close enough to his parents, there was definitely still a wall between them, each in different ways. he struggled to fully connect with them; not really because of a distance they created, but there was just no way they could fully understand, so he elected to be selective with the information and struggles he shared.
- he still loved them, naturally. that didn't stop. it was his duty to as a son, he believed, as it was theirs to love him. even now, he holds love for them, though many likely think it isn't true considering he killed them. i think gojo's reaction was so... visceral.... because he knew of suguru's love for his parents obviously, but above all, he knew how devoted suguru was to protecting the weak; killing his parents meant both of these fundamental beliefs suguru held no longer existed. understanding stopped there, where i believe suguru's logic was more along the lines of "the weak are creating the problems plaguing them, humanity is creating curses for this endless cycle because they're too weak to handle intense emotions and control their cursed energy, the only way this cycle stops is if those who can't control their energy aren't alive to be a risk, therefore killing them(parents) is somewhat merciful because they can't be subjected to a far more violent death."
- it was easy for him to kill everyone else, he deemed them part of the evil cycle in the world, and their eagerness to have innocent children branded monsters did nothing but reaffirm what he had already been considering. it wasn't easy to do to his parents. it was its own necessary evil, to him. ultimately, i think he wanted their death to be as quick as possible, and utilized the curse that wouldn't make them suffer entirely. they went in their sleep, but not as peacefully as he would have liked.
- i think, as a child knowing he was different, there was a small part of him that felt alienated no matter how much he pushed it down, no matter how much of the feeling was his own doing. nanako and mimiko were living through the nightmares he had, and he wondered if his parents ever regarded him with the same fear.
- i saw this art & really believe it captures how i imagine the moment; the struggle to fully comprehend what he's just done, the tug of war between his prior ideals & the only possible solution he can see. yes, he decided it had to be done, but that doesn't change the love he felt for them.