HeadUnderWater

i’m really struggling right now

i feel like i’m drowning and there’s no reaching the top

like i’m forever sinking to the bottom

except

there is no bottom

a bottomless pit that just makes me feel like i’m losing all of my senses

and i genuinely don’t know how to pull myself out

at the same time i feel such a heart breaking loneliness

a feeling so strong it just adds more fuel to the fire that is burning me

i don’t know who to turn to

i need something to change

i’ve fought so hard for so long and i’m so tired

i’m so tired of this suffering

i’m so ready to give up

i’m tired

give me a break please

falling

drowning

broken

searching for a reason to live

coming up with little to none now

i just want people to actually care about me

check in on me

you see i’m suffering and yet you stay silent

i’m begging for friendship

are you my friend

or just an acquaintance

i’m not sure anymore

oh well

what do i deserve anyway..

Do you ever just want to scream at the top of your lungs until your voice is gone?

Cry until you fall asleep so you don’t have to think about that day anymore?

Just disappear of the face of the earth, pack your bags and leave without saying anything to anyone and just completely starting over?

Want people to really understand how you feel and even try to see where you’re coming from?

Want to cut all ties with any family you have and just leave?

Say what’s really on your mind instead of always sugarcoating everything to feed in to people’s sorry egos so they don’t make you feel like shit for calling them out?

Or maybe..just maybe..disappearing literally.

Yeah

Me too