Cluttered Thoughts

I am trying But I don’t know how to be What you want Or need

“The way I fell for you wasn’t beautiful. It wasn’t elegant or graceful like they make it seem in the books or the movies. It was cold, dark and lonely. Because as I fell, you let me crash and burn. You made me think it was something real. Something worth fighting for. Something worth losing myself for. You allowed me to believe your lies. The same beautiful lies you told over and over and over again. You knew exactly what you were doing. You knew your words weren’t sincere, but you said them anyway. You were my joy. You were my light. My happiness. My safe haven. My favorite person. My serenity. At least I thought you were. Now you’re just my biggest mistake. My most regrettable choice. The reason for the darkness that still lies inside of me. I was too naive, blindly hanging on to your every word, making you my everything. That was my mistake. But I learned, and I will never give someone that much power over me ever again. As I fell, you let me crash and burn. But like a Phoenix, I rose from the ashes. You didn’t win. You don’t hold that kind of power. You didn’t break me, but you sure as hell changed me.”