"Papercut Survivor"

I am different to different people but to myself,I am an overthinker who also has anxiety this is a relationship that kills me on the inside on a daily basis.Me and my overthinking have a long term relationshipmy overthinking knows just what hurts mostmy overthinking is a paradox I cannot get rid off

I wait for you to call or message me,but I wanted most to hold your hand again.To message you and tell you how much I like being around you,to tell you if it’s time you want, its time I am willing to give,if it’s you, I am willing to waitbut how do I do all that without sounding pathetic https://www.instagram.com/p/Cc5AZgZJ-laGLFlxMyB6CXUY8PN726iGMVd9Co0/

I find it hard to breathe To function

Sometimes an anxiety attack just creeps up on me I lose the ability to think Simple tasks take me forever to finish And the tears just flow unannounced I find it hard to breathe To function I wish I had an answer for days like this Wish I knew how to stop it before it happened Because days like this are hard to get through

When people tell me I have changed

When people tell me I have changed, I often look back and go through all the times I have been talked over during conversations. I have been called stupid, unmotivated, too curious, talkative among many things, so I changed myself to fit their mould, to become the person they wanted me to be And now they tell me I am too quiet, that I have changed too much I like keeping my thoughts to myself I…

I often wonder, Late at night as I sit on the edge of my bed when and how my anxiety took over I couldn’t pinpoint a particular day or time But I could pinpoint the exact moments And how I felt How all of those combined led to this moment in time And all those other moments in time When I almost lost When I fell out of love with myself When I thought I wasn’t enough. I have realized, it’s okay to…