welcome to the circus

i have to PRETEND i have to DAYDREAM or i will KILL MYSELF

no ai usage over here. you’re gonna get my shitty authentic writing whether you like it or not

i wish my brain were not full of gludge. i would like to be using it & because of the gludge i cannot do that.

i can't do secret hidden lore or leave things up to imagination because i like showing people things too much . i'm like check it out do you like my story here's every single thing that has ever happened in it . i'm too excited for tacit implications i like to show off my characters like someone shows off their pet kitty that they put a cute hat on

Squeezing oc like a stress ball. Throwing oc at the wall like a tennis ball. Dribbling oc on the ground like a basket ball. Whacking oc with a club like golf ball. AND OTHER SUCH ACTIVIES THAT YOU CAN IMAGINE.

currently liking the character so much that all I can do is pace around my darkened house saying "they make me die"

it's normal and actually good for your health to see yourself in the most guilt ridden character you've ever seen in your life

okay not to ocpost again but the worst thing about having an oc is sometimes they become The Character to you. and you need to talk to someone about it like wow I can’t stop thinking about The Character… but in order to do so you have to like sit them down and explain everything about your oc first. and then it’s just you explaining your writing ideas. i need to talk about them the same way i would talk about any random character i love to someone.