mmh

wangxian au wherein Wei Wuxian thinks he’s finally safe and wanted by someone. Where Lan Wangji thinks he has finally grasped onto Wei Wuxian for good. But alas, the world is cruel, wicked, and most certainly has some form of personal vendetta against them.

or

Another universe in which Lan Wangji has to watch Wei Wuxian run away from him.

Based on the lyrics from The Front Bottoms’ song Twin Sized Mattress

with tears in my eyes i begged you to stay you said 'hey, man, i love you but no fucking way'

Wei Wuxian had been staying with Lan Wangji in secret ever since the latest fight had broken out between him and Madam Yu…

It was a tale as old as time; Wei Wuxian finds himself in a minuscule amount of trouble for something he didn’t even do and then Madam Yu in turn goes ballistic on his ass. “You’re so ungrateful Wei Wuxian blah blah blah selfish blah blah blah our family would be better off without you BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH!” Usually, when these unfortunate situations occur, Wei Wuxian has mastered the art of shutting up and trying to become as small as humanly possible. He’s learned that just taking it is far less painful than trying to stick up for himself, yeah he stopped playing that angle a long time ago. Except this time had been different. So much different because when passing the yard, his shijie overheard the beginnings of a verbal lashing and had pointedly had enough of the way her mother acted towards Wei Wuxian, so this time she decided she was going to do something about it. Except that something ended up with Yanli being flung to the ground as her mother’s hand connected with her face instead of Wei Wuxian’s. Yanli, at the last second, had thrown herself in front of her mother’s force of anger, all to protect her precious a-xian. For once, Madam Yu was speechless as she gazed upon her own flesh and blood crumpled on the ground, wearing a face of horror and shock, much like Wei Wuxian’s own expression. Before anyone had time to move, Jiang Cheng was on the scene, running in after hearing the commotion. Meeting his sister at her side, Jiang Cheng took one glance up at Wei Wuxian, and muttered a single word, “leave.” So Wei Wuxian did what he knew best and ran away. He ran out the door and away from the house that had sheltered him since childhood. He ran as far as his aching limbs would allow, through streets and alleys, past buildings and trees. He ran until his own screaming thoughts could not be heard over the pounding of his heart. Wei Wuxian finally slowed down only when his legs had carried him to stand before an all too familiar structure, the Lan house.

Now Wei Wuxian sits at the edge of Lan Wangji’s bed, gazing back and forth between the pale glow of the moon and the quiet calmness of Lan Wangji’s face, peacefully blanketed in sleep. It is in these moments where Wei Wuxian gets to truly appreciate Lan Wangji for all that he is, without having to hide behind the compliments disguised as jokes or teasing loudly while quietly admiring. He gets to look at his face in awe of how someone who presents so rigid when awake can appear so vulnerable when eyes finally close. He thinks he will miss Lan Wangji the most, especially these still moments in time where he’s just a boy sitting beside another boy and for a second it doesn’t appear as if the ground will open up and swallow him whole. But, these moments tend to end as quick as they begin.

When he had first stood outside Lan Wangji’s window just those few weeks ago, out of breath and out of options on where to go and what to do, Lan Wangji had pulled him in without a second of hesitation. Wei Wuxian could never truly figure out just what made Lan Wangji act so kind towards him. Surly it couldn’t just be his outrageously good looks and cunning personality, really they had only interacted a handful of times here and there. These times usually consisting of Wei Wuxian teasing Lan Wangji until his ears turned a lovely shade of red or Lan Wangji sticking up for him in a situation where Wei Wuxian definitely did not deserve his kindness. Without even realizing it, Lan Wangji was kind of always just there when and where Wei Wuxian needed him even if he didn’t know it himself. Which is the reason why it makes having to do what he’s about to do that much more difficult.

Earlier in the day, Wei Wuxian was hiding in his usual spot in the closet while Lan Wangji had his daily guqin lesson with his uncle the next room over. Wei Wuxian happened to hear another person entering the room and had caught bits and pieces of a conversation seemingly between his Uncle Jiang and Lan Qiren. Jiang Fengmian was apparently trying to find Wei Wuxian, little did Lan Qiren know that he was right under his own roof, so Lan Qiren had regretfully informed him of his unknown whereabouts and sent him on his way. That’s when Wei Wuxian knew that he couldn’t possibly put Lan Wangji in this position any longer. Omitting the truth when it came to Lan Qiren was one thing, but for Lan Wangji to lie directly to his uncles face on Wei Wuxian’s behalf about his own whereabouts just could not stand. He cared about Lan Wangji way too much to let him be dragged down by his own string of bad luck. That’s when Wei Wuxian decided that he had to leave, leave the safety of a roof over his head and the warmth beneath the covers of Lan Wangji’s bed.

just popping in to say i will NEVER forgive netflix for canceling Dead Boy Detectives never ever ever ever

(i just binge watched the entire season over the last few hours and my heart is in SHAMBLES knowing we will never know if edwin ever sees niko again like i am so unwell about it)