~❄️Empress👑~

me? constantly paranoid that the people i love are upset with me and going to leave? yes always but please don’t be mad :(

We express our feelings online because so many people we tried to confide in have shoved us away in disgust

I dream of jumping off buildings and swallowing pills and tying a noose. What the hell do normal people dream about

Sometimes I don’t want to fight. I don’t want to try. I want to just give up. Crumble to pieces. Break down to never be rebuild again. Sometimes I don’t have the strength to pull myself together. It scares me. Almost makes me panic. It feels like I might actually die from feeling so bad, horrible, awful… there is no word heavy enough to describe the weight I feel in those moments. I am literally being crushed by a combination of pain and sadness. It’s beyond intense. It’s terrifying. I fear that I will never get better. I fear my head, I fear my heart. I am running out of energy…

It is so exhausting to always be the one that cares the most. To be the one that tries the hardest. Having a big heart, leaves you with so much pain…