always planned on watching the movies in chronological order, with feelings, and good intent but managed to not do that in the course of my childhood because i was apparently too busy with the jonas brothers and my small emotional heart could only handle one thing at a time

i have this really weird habit that when things are too vast and overwhelming for me that i know if i got into i’d be SO into it i’d have a hard time coming out, i take my time

anyway, i got into it FINALLY 

it started out REALLY slow. the first emotion was “overwhelmed.” kinda like how i was during hamilton. 

and then…..i found tom felton’s tiktoks. 

OH BUT IT DIDN’T EVEN START THERE

IT STARTED WHEN I FOUND HIS TIKTOK OF HIM SINGING A HAMILTON SONG 

AND FOUND OUT HE WAS HAMILTRASH

GOD. MY INSIDES CHURNED LIKE A BITCH, I TELL YOU

it feels nice being a part of a fandom that is as active as it was when it started. there’s always something to look forward to. 

the first character i really liked was luna. i resonated with her the most. 

and then i thought about fred and george more and found that i resonated with them the most 

took the pottermore sorting hat quiz and found out i’m a hufflepuff. which is no surprise to most people

my patronus is a long dog. i forgot what it’s called. but i laughed out loud and said “LONG DOG” 

my crush on draco malfoy isn’t actually real. my real crush is on tom felton because he’s a fucking softie who loves dogs and just radiates love and happiness. it’s contagious.

watched a bunch of instagram live videos of tom felton. had me pick up the guitar again everyday. got my callous fingertips back from the dead. 

IM COLLECTING HARRY POTTER MERCH AND I HAVEN’T COLLECTED MERCH IN ALMOST 10 YEARS 

i’m planning on collecting the wands, too. my first wand is luna’s wand. 

i probably like luna because i know she’d have the best taste in fashion out of everyone 

out of the golden trio, i resonate with ron.

jason isaacs and tom felton are my favorite duo. they’re so cute. all they do is talk. 

i own a hufflepuff sweatervest, hufflepuff scarf and neck tie. but i also have a slytherin neck tie, sweater, and robe. i plan on having all 4 house robes 

my taurus ass loving this whole collecting merch thing 

my taurus ass loving being so into something and not getting bored everyday 

dracotok is my shit 

reading the books currently!! started last week! i think 

i really miss being into something like this. it feels so nice :( 

downloaded carousell again to look for harry potter merch im sorry

11/13/2015

Late out kase may huddle plus traffic so mga around 3 nko nakauwe. Dumaan ako sa JoBee para kumaen, sobrang nkakagutom men. Kaso pag tingin ko sa menu, as usual chicken joy, spaghetti, burger stake, kaumay nmn. So nag decide nlng ako mag large fries, large burger, large coke and sundae (ako na parang construction worker kumaen) lol. 

While eating, nkita ko yung cup ng sundae “Share your Joy” tas may Christmas churva designs. Naisip ko agad yung mga lola na nagtitinda ng kadila sa may gilid ng simbahan na lage kong dinadaanan. Kada payday, nagbibigay ako ng food sa knila, kaso dko payday ngayon, wla kong budget. T_T

So yung kakainin ko, pinabalot ko nlng. Pwede nmn ako kumaen sa bahay eh, besides, hindi lng ako yung gutom sa mundo, 1 ride away lng nmn ako, kayang tiisin. 5 minutes lng pwede ulet ako kumaen. So ayun, tinawag ko yung waiter tas pinatake out ko nalang yung order ko. 

Paglabas ko ng JoBee, nkita ko na cla, malapit lng kase yung simbahan mga 15 steps away. Tas yung fries, nauna ko binigay sa isang lola, nagulat siya pag abot ko tas kinuha agad sabay sabi “thank you dai”. Yung heart ko parang nalulusaw, ang priceless nung ngiti ni lola, tas ayoko kse makita niya yung mukha ko, titatago ko sa buhok ko para kong multo hahaa. Tas ayun dun sa ibang lola, inabot ko nmn yung iba kong dala. Yung isa maldita nga eh, pagkakuha snob nko hahaha. Cute.

Pagkaabot ko umalis nko agad. Ayoko kase marecognize nila ako. Kunyare mysterious hahaa. Ninja moves. Pasakay na sana ko kaso sinulyapan ko ulet cla. Yung mga mata nilang mapupungay, yung mga kamay niang pagod na kakaalok ng kandila, yung mga buhok nilang puti at balat nilang kulubot na dala nga katandaan, lahat yun worth it titigan. Kahit parang dinudurog yung heart ko everytime dadaan ako dun, masaya ko na kahit maliit na bagay, napapasaya ko sila.