The Vortex

The growing fear that this emptiness is permanent.

Rot Girl February.

Brain fog. Emptiness. Melancholy. Plateau of emotion.

I have that deeply tired feeling stuck in my bones

Does anyone know the cheat code to erase the pain in my heart?

the “i wanna go home” never leaves my head even when i’m physically sitting in my bed

Current mood: trying not to explode into a million fucking pieces

Being passively suicidal is funny as fuck like yeah i don't plan on doing anything and knowing me i never will but the idea of a gun to my head sounds really fucking good right now.

hey can you come over and surgically remove this heavy, aching rot from my heart? we can watch a movie afterwards

I’m getting quieter because no one hears me anyway.

unfortunately i remember everything and it will sit in my chest forever.

I’m always the ‘it’s okay, I understand’ person, even when my voice shakes, even when tears are falling and my heart is breaking inside. I comfort others while I’m falling apart. I make it easy for them to hurt me, just so they don’t feel bad. And no one ever sees how heavy that really is.