I’m lowkey tweaking ok I’ve been single basically like all my life I’m queer the only experience I’ve had so far is like crushes and I dated a girl for like two weeks we kissed but it wasn’t like fulll on and I definitely think my inexperience was what made it not work out but lowkey I was trying to get over a crush I had on this other guy but that was all in like highschool so it’s been a long time since I’ve fr had interest in anyone I mean there’s been like times where I’m like looking but I genuinely think it’s out of my own like boredom
ANYWAY I’m tweaking. I think I done did it again… the guy I had a crush on in highschool was lowkey like ouuuu unwoke pro Israel lowkey racist and fatphobic but idk I think liked him for like his looks and the fact that he was like quiet ig I basically wiggled my way into being his friend bc I would just sit with him in the morning 😭😭😭 very pathetic now that I think about it but oh well at least I was trying and he did eventually like become my friend and hang around me a lot so it did work but not in the way I intended
And I fear I may have put myself in the same position …. bc I once again like a guy who is very unwoke and don’t want me again 😍😍😍 I’dk I mean he’s cute BUT and also I don’t think he’s into me like at all
Idk I think because of the lack of men I’ve seen and the lack of men who actually talk to me with any interest whatsoever like part of me knows he talks to me bc he lowkey has to but the other half is like what if he fwwww meee YAYY Oh well I won’t get my hopes up or anything but ugh it’s just sooo like frustrating like I literally need to spray myself w a water bottle like nooo this cannot be anyway I followed him on instagram im lowkey geeked but im trying to be nonchalant
