Products Of Pure Boredom

The I Don’t Know: we met through tumblr... I know it’s the worst place to find someone but I was desperate for attention. We met in person at a cafe and had a good time. We continued to meet up and go on little dates. I took things slow, like really slow. I learned my lesson from the past and didn’t even hold their hand until the fourth date. On New Years I let them reach second base (foreplay). After that I kind of lost interest in them and I’m not sure how to feel about them. This has happened before. I trick myself into liking someone b/c they are good to me and are reliable. My mind in someway thinks that I won’t get hurt by them and that they are someone good to settle down with. But I don’t want to settle for anyone. I want to find someone I trueely love and want to be with forever.

I need someone who knows me more than I know myself, and vise versa. Someone who I can’t manipulate and they can’t manipulate me. Someone who I can’t trick myself into liking and just settle for.

Schools over for the break and your friends all went home, so you just sit in your room watch anime and get drunk

Ahhhhhhhhh what do you do with feelings??????

When you’re the only one brave enough to raise your hand in class, but then chicken out and quickly put your hand down cause you’re afraid your wrong.... then the teacher says the answer and it’s exactly what you were going to say. :/

Wanting cuddles

I could go out and do things like run some errands, but I think I’ll just lay in bed, watch Disney movies, and drink hot cocoa

That awkward moment when someone asked you something and your mind goes blank, so you just walk away.

How to remember things

When you’re listening to music and your phone dies, but you continue to wear your headphones so others don’t talk to you.

So my doctor told me to go see a councilor to work on my motivation, but I’m like I have motivation. I have plenty of it. Just not enough to go to class, and deal with people.

Jason: