CIELO

no-non Jan 2012

Fame [ Rising Expectations ]

“When there is a contract offered for a new production, I still think ‘Really? You’re kidding!’ There is a bigger sense of hesitation than there is joy. But then I think I learned how to emotionally prepare myself from that point on. One and only thing I try to be conscious about during work is to ‘have fun’. I don’t think about anything else. I used to feel responsible and pressured in the past, but over-thinking tires you out doesn’t it? LOL Besides, while I’m thankful for having a main part, it isn’t that special either. Because I think movies and dramas are made by gathered effort of everyone involved.”

Act [ Acting ]

I prepare myself by trying to figure out how to be expressive before acting of course. If what I do is okay then that’s fine, but if the director has a certain request, then that becomes my goal. Emotions can be controlled however I want to, so I try a different approach to reach that goal. The level of my tension differs depending on the production. For example, anything goes with Kaibutsu-kun so it’s easier. I am more nervous with serious roles. When I did stage plays, I was so very focused. “

Art [ drawing/painting ]

“I still hold very intense love for drawing/painting as I did before. I did Kaibutsu-kun related drawings when I was doing the show. There was a project I started right after that and was put on hold. I picked it up again and that’s what I’m working on. I usually set a deadline to finish a project, but this time I’m planning to keep working on it until I am satisfied. To me, art is something I can’t quit, but it also isn’t something I expect to perfect. I just want to continue drawing/painting. So it may very well not be just a hobby for me. What is it then? I don’t really know myself.”

Performance [ Expressions ]

“Performing, such as singing or dancing is also what I can lose myself in. It started out as just pure fun, and it’s not like I wanted to have my performance filmed and preserved as production or be watched by people. So it feels strange to be expected to perform as part of work. I feel lucky to have my work preserved in the form of CDs and DVDs. But I’m not suited for the “cutting it looking cool” type expression, like the photo shoot we are doing today (for this page)! Because I’m not cool and I can’t cut it. I’m probably not the type who should even attempt that. “ - translated by the wonderful song-for-me@tumblr. Thank you!