goodbye, i'm going home

No words!!!!

I've been so lucky to get all the tix of my favorite artists! Today was such an important event to me. It was me vs the Philippines on my birthday. Got 3 errors each time I choose a seat! My queue number was 60k and I was using my mobile data and my PC. It was amazing that my mobile data could bring me to my dream tix!

This was me 10 years ago. A dreamer, a fangirl, a manifester. I didn't have the silver spoon, the safety net, or the supportive environment that most people have. All I could do was my best, in everything. I always had to go through the hardships or the hard way. I didn't have it easy. So when I get something I want, God, just believe I grinded so hard for that, including believing in the impossible.

Thank you, G! After all that I underwent in 2025, I'm happy to be in a good place this 2026! You may call it luck, destiny, fate pero sure ko sa akong pag-let go sa mga dli maakoa kay nagcontribute sya sa space nga naa sa akong life karon. I have space for good things na. I just had to let go of things that were clearly not for me.

Happy 28th birthday, self!!!

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What can I say? I've changed in so many ways. In the last 8 years, I've been loved, hurt, pessimistic, (unfortunately) suicidal, but also (fortunately) happy. Despite it all, I found joy in being. It was seriously a struggle to get here and tbh, I didn't expect to live this far (I've always wanted to die young), so I didn't have any plans after 25.

Thankfully, the voice and thoughts in my head have learned to mellow down and just be. Through the years, I seriously had to learn that I don't need to hurt to prove I am worthy. There's no prize for being someone who struggled most. It's not a sin to choose the easiest path.

For this year, I wish myself joy. There's nothing more important than to find joy in life, whether it be in a good cup of coffee, a good movie, or a frustrating first-person shooting game - I am grateful to be able to live one more year to experience all of the above.

Happy 28th birthday, self!!! There's more to come for us. This isn't the end. I will continue to be a better person, friend, daughter, co-worker, and sheep.

Everything that's meant for me is already coming for me, in the right time and in the right way. <3