I’m Addicted To Fantasy

Stars, hide your fires;

Is that why she invited Gwyn and Emerie to training to help them through their trauma?

Is that why she tricked Cassian into coming into the library to show the priestesses how he trained her in an effort to encourage them to come to training to help them with their trauma?

Is that why she silently informed Gwyn that she would listen to her story when she was ready to tell it?

Is that why she spent all of her book caring more about Feyre's trauma than her own?

Is that why she went to dinner in the House specifically to see Cassian to find out what was wrong with him?

Is that why she gave Cassian a blow job to comfort him?

Is that why she asked Feyre about her fear of inclosed spaces when they were at Greyson's keep?

Is that why she turned into Elain's 24/7 caretaker for months on end after they were turned High Fae against their will?

Is that why she made sure Lucien kept his distance from Elain?

Is that why she slapped Greyson when he hurt Elain's feelings?

Is that why she tried to rescue Feyre from Prythian?

Is that why she told Feyre to leave them and go back to Tamlin?

Is that why she refused to ask about Az's scarred hands because she didn't want to make him relive his trauma?

Is that why she asked Bryce to play more music when she sensed Bryce starting to spiral into despair?

Is that why she took Emerie up to a different level of the library when she noticed her being overcome by her past trauma?

I could continue, but you get the point.

Nesta cares more about everyone else's trauma than her own, which is why she never opens up about her trauma. It's also why we get such bullshit lines like, "Our mother treated Feyre even worse" even though anyone with two braincells can piece together enough of canon to know that their mother abusing Nesta is worse than their mother ignoring Feyre.

Love is not designed for the cynical How long can you wait for the one you deserve?

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