โ im not uncomfortable. โ anna said, simply. she wasnโt. never was really. most of this feeling was embarrassmentโฆ โ i can still drop your class, you know that. โ she lets go of the stuffed animal, letting it fall to the floor. โ sure, iโd have to take another class over the summer but i can do that. i mean i am failing still, might be in my best interest to drop anyway. โ she was ignoring all of his other reasonings. they didnโt matter to her. she didnโt care. her sister had no interest in annaโs life. she didnโt care about his age. her friends would know when they were allowed to. she wasnโt worried. she could see he was. โ if you are that worried about it, maybe it is for the best that this ends before it really goes anywhere. i donโt want thatโฆ but if itโs whats best for you i can make it happen. โย
no, no, no , no !! he doesnโt want her to drop his class. he doesnโt want her to just slip away. fear is evident on his face. he doesnโt want to lose her but he doesnโt want to ruin her.ย
โย anna, please, listen to me -ย โ he says, words just slipping out of his mouth without much thought. he sighs.ย โ when i was a boy, my father and mother joined a church. the paster preached about the end of times. the second coming of christ.ย they said it would be imminent. those who believed in this second coming would be granted eternal glory while the rest were met with the wrath of god. i was taken out of school, alienated from my peers. my father sold our farm and we lived in tents for god knows how long. we ate nothing but what we could forage. berries, roots, roadkill . . . all while waiting to die. but, it never came and the papers read that the paster my parents had trusted so much had been a con. from then on, i have been alone. parents resented me. i could not reach out to friends because i had none. extended family excommunicated. i have never known a moment of happiness in my life -ย โ he has never spoken about his childhood to her before. it has been so sensitive to him. there are so many details he is emitting because he just wants to get this out.ย โ that is until i met you. since then, i have known nothing but happiness.ย โ
