it's really gross how you can be self aware enough to know what's going on in your head but you can't actually stop it from happening. i need to grab it like a pigeon that got stuck in a house and throw it out the window. be free

kind of crazy how Narrator has had the individualism so thoroughly beaten out of him by his corporate office job that he can't even be independent in his personal relationships. as soon as he meets Tyler he latches onto him like a parasite and builds his entire identity around him because that's the only way he knows how to live. yeah he doesn't let his job dictate him anymore but he's a lost little lamb without someone telling him what to do and puts Tyler into that role instead. he never wants to make a decision without an invisible string puppeteering him the whole time and literally only gets rid of Tyler the moment he decides to reclaim some semblance of autonomy but imo that desire for control won't last for very long once he's gone

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