kia ora!

oh no its okay lol like he's not trying to stop me from talking about my feelings he just worries a lot that i'm making myself sad by only ever talking about bad stuff and never the good! which like... dont know if i actually agree or not but his mental health is wayyy better than mine so i've been trying his advice a bit. i just notice that i talk all the time about whats making me sad without really mentioning the stuff that makes me happy. the stuff i was gonna post but didn't was like "i sound like a man and my dad doesnt know i exist and i feel physically incapable of joy sometimes" which is really stuff i should tell a therapist instead of the internet maybe...

this is very brave of me because it's very scary to put myself out there like this, but i've been journalling! and i wanted to share my thoughts and feelings with all of you! maybe my experiences will make some of you feel seen! maybe for others, it will help you understand your system friends better! being part of a system is really tricky. it makes me sad sometimes. but i'm so happy to be here!! (^:

emilie.hofferber

saw a lady wearing this shirt at my workplace and thought it was so stupid. i couldn’t stop thinking about it.

Me having to gather fabric like I’m pulling open the curtain of a proscenium just to access my back pocket: well