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get over yourself

“i felt a miserable specimen, and what’s more, not only in your eyes but in the eyes of the whole world, for you were for me the measure of all things.” / “sometimes i imagine the map of the world spread out and you stretched diagonally across it. and i feel as if i could consider living in only those regions that either are not covered by you or are not within your reach.”

alfred

hello

didn’t feel like rendering this one to death

i think tolys is a very resentful and bitter person who often contends with feelings of spite and helplessness. i also think he’s buried this resentment so much that it seems like he’s just checked out until it rises to the surface for whatever reason. i think he’s definitely snapped and brutally murdered ivan at least once and was prepared for his life to be hell once ivan came back but ivan was just like ^J^ and let that fear of repercussion hang over tolys as its own punishment

oh dude for sure he’s that “where’s my juul” song. he’s had a nicotine addiction since he was a teenager and never bothered to stop because there aren’t any consequences for him really. he’s hitting his vape in meetings and blowing the smoke down his shirt but everyone notices bc smoke trails are coming out of his jacket and he smells like strawberries

AWWW THANK U i’m glad you enjoyed that post! yeah tho i think he grew up extremely lonely and both that and the cultivation of the culture of american individualism/exceptionalism followed him & greatly influences how he interacts with others. i think he rlly wants to present himself as untouchable/infallible bc he has and always will have something to prove