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Another relationship ended. Well hopefully this time with more clarity. I realised I’m pretty damn fked up. It’s as if I knew what was going to be happening at the end but I still chose to believe otherwise. You’re lost, you’re really lost. And I understand why you feel this way, haha ive been there. I think most people at the age of 26 would’ve felt this somehow rather and although it is kind of odd you only felt it now. Im sorry it hurts, i know it hurts. That kind of burning pain that hurts your head and heart and you will like fucking shit. There’s nothing you can do about it, nothing you can do at all. You start to question everything, the past, present, future. I get it. Damn me if I’m wrong, but you needed this. To feel like fucking shit. Maybe only then something would click in your head. I love you enough to let you go, you need to grow. I really hope you do. I don’t it to end, but I really cannot see this working out with the state you’re in now.

I’m think I’m just afraid of being left alone. Insecure. Sensitive. Overthinking. I don’t think anyone should have to be constantly keeping up with me and trying to appease me. Though I really wished to be. I wish I could be that strong, confident, secure girl. I don’t think you saw through my sadness. You do, sometimes. Then I wonder when you’ll get sick of me. Wonder when someone will look at me and think “this is too much”. I really don’t want to be like this…

Today you accompanied me. And I really appreciated that.. but shld I really be doing this..

Dreamt of you. We were together on the bus with shopping bags. I think it was a rainy day. We knew our current status. I remember I told you “if I could choose, I would choose not to have spoken to you back in school” I remember laying on your shoulders and feeling a sense of comfort. And we knew we can’t do anything to be together again.

hii pookie❤️ random message but just wanna thank you for being such a great amazing girlfriend(: although we have our differences and came from different backgrounds, but im rly glad u stumbled upon my life(: although u feel like im always supporting u and being ur little pillar to come home to, i feel like youre my little adventurous girlfriend that is always bubbly and making my life spark a little more each day^^ i just wanna say a big thank you to u for making me feel very much loved each day. ever since u came into my life, youve brought me through many journeys. you always showed me a little more on how to live life each day and always bring me out of my worries and anxiety. instead of being anxious and always on the edge, u cure my little heart and make me feel so loved that i feel like more and more each day i learn how to love too(: you say that youre lucky to have a guy like me but youre my reason why i wanna be the right man for you. thank you so much for everything u do to make me feel loved and appreciated and because of that, i will do the same for the rest of ours lives together(: happy 2nd year dear, enjoy ur day tmr^^❤️❤️

U were there. I felt it

我曾经那么爱过你. I’m sorry I hurt you so much. You’ve been nothing but an angel to me. I think it’ll hunt me forever. How I’ve been to you.

Missed you today.

You really broke my heart then. I loved you so much and it wasn’t enough for you.