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𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐀𝐍 𝐎𝐍𝐋𝐘 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐄. stopping just short of openly gaping at her. truly, one would never know whether they were coming or going with how she spun her words & flipped the script so readily. maybe the old victor ought to feel abashed; play the lover scorned & walk away. leave her to her party, prattling on to the capitol citizens who praised the designers works like they were holy scripture. but that anger — oh, that anger — it kept him firmly in place. at least for a moment more. ❝ the audacity says the woman who seconds before was quick to remind me of my place in the capitol’s game. the audacity says the woman who pushed me away. ❞ indignant tone interweaves & seeps into the words. now he is ready to leave. sick of all these circles they have ran around one another tonight. tired — he is just tired now. ❝ how did you expect me to react ? you push and pull me all different ways & are surprised when i question whether anything that happened between us was real ? i get that you were scared — hell, so was i. i loved you . . . i still love you. the last time that didn’t go well for me; so much so that i didn’t think i’d go down that road again. but, i don’t know what you want from me, rose. ❞
HE USES IT SO FREELY. so recklessly, her real name. the capitol and its inhabitants wouldn’t know it even if it were to stand before them screaming at the tops of lungs. only would they know heaven, the designer coming from nothing to capture everything. hand picked by the president to dress the upmost important with the finest finishes. how dare she stand before one man now crumbling at the very seams ? how would she pick herself back up to enter the crowd when he leaves once more ? she would do just that, of course. bite the bullet until teeth cannot take it anymore. maybe they’re closer to the end than she realizes. but why keep it up with him ? when he sees through it all whether she likes it or not ? yet another deep intake and she release, eyes would slowly find him and mouth would part. she wouldn’t think, no, only speak and pray she wouldn’t form herself into the mold of a fool. ❝ i’m trying, nash, i want you to see that i’m trying. i’m standing here like a fucking struck idiot but i’m trying. i —— jesus christ ... ❞ voice trails off as raspberries are blown in defeat. after all these years she would still trip over her words where they count, she knew what she wanted but pride and scorn would forbid her from speaking it. they would be her downfalls yet held them on such golden platters. a tragedy in itself and in its entirety. ❝ i still lo—— ...i just didn’t want you to go. that’s what i wanted from you. that’s what i’ve ever wanted from you. was to be right here through the good and the bad. but once you got a taste of the bad ? well, we all see what you did with that. so i’ll pass, i don’t want anything else from you. ❞














