Searching for the light

Hello 🩷 thank you for asking. I hope my answer and experience can be useful for you

I had to pray about it a lot. Every day. It’s absolutely everywhere on the Internet and in media too, so in the beginning, the temptations were extremely strong.

Eventually as I started to read the Bible and pray more often, ideas would pop into my head. Like locking down my devices. I set up a DNS (nextdns.io) on my phone and computer to block pornographic websites. (It’s free and easier than you might think! If you find this is something you’d like to try, you can message me and I’ll help you set it up) Then I locked down YouTube as much as I could by putting it in restricted mode. I did this with other platforms that allowed restricted mode. I also blocked keywords on X and any other platform that allows it. Tumblr allows you to block keywords too.

This cleaned up my experience a lot but things still get through. Locking down my devices helped a lot with being exposed to this content in the beginning. I also try to be discerning when it comes to watching media. If there’s something I really want to watch but it has lustful content in it, I’ll fast forward past those parts. It’s not easy at first but it gets easier and easier as time goes on

It’s been about a year and a half since I renounced porn. I’ve relapsed three times but only for one session each time. What’s been most useful to me is staying in constant communication with God, asking Him to relieve me from this addiction, and reading the Bible

Try googling “scripture for addiction” and see what you find. You might be comforted by some of the verses you find

It was also relevant for me to ask myself what I’m running from that I’m using porn as a crutch. I have CPTSD which explains why I’m always trying to self pleasure. Being aware of what motivates you to watch can help you find solutions

Finally, the more you resist temptations, the less strong they will become. Eventually, you’ll have a temptation and almost laugh at it. Because the temptation goes from screaming into your head at all times to a mere insect bite with time.

Teach me to do your will,for you are my God;may your good Spiritlead me on level ground.

MOSES AND THE BURNING BUSH

Exodus 3:2 And the angel of the Lord appeared unto him in a flame of fire out the midst of a bush: and he looked, and, behold, the bush burned with fire, and the bush was not consumed.

MOSES FEEL INADEQUATE

Exodus 4:10 And Moses said unto the Lord, O my Lord, I am not eloquent, neither hereto-fore, nor since thou hast spoken unto thy servant: but I am slow of speech, and of a slow tongue.

Exodus 4:11 And the Lord said unto him, who hath made man's mouth? or who maketh the dumb, or deaf, or the seeing, or the blind? have not I the Lord?

8 For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, 9 not a result of works, so that no one may boast.

When Jesus Christ heard this, he told them

“Healthy people don’t need a doctor - sick people do.

I have come to call not those who THINK they are RIGHTEOUS.

But those who KNOW they are sinners.”