my anxiety has anxiety

Maybe I’m weird but I do not understand dudes who propose and get turned down like….how did you not know she would say no? Like…are people asking out of the clear blue sky? Again, maybe this is abnormal, but my boyfriend and I have had many, many conversations about marriage. Deep conversations and also sleepy pillow talk where one of us whispers “Let’s get married.” and the other one is like “Heck yeah.” We’ve discussed who will take who’s name and the idea of public proposals and the style of rings we like. Maybe you’re not SUPPOSED to talk about all that but…it just seems like it shouldn’t be a total surprise. Like I want to be surprised about exactly when and where but, that’s the only thing I want to leave up to chance.

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