Ephilor Van Helmt Azamanor II

Last Night With You

Heavier than I can carry You appeared to take up residence in me Brought with it more pain than I could bear Loaded with more madness than my sanity could tolerate Appeared to me at night, like an old friend That stabbed me in the back But licked the wound Addicted me and tore apart everything I could offer For no offering is worthy of your divinity Like embers in my eyes you comfort me Brings relief loaded with desire Just to deny me the light I see on the horizon For put yourself where I can never reach Couldn't heal the wounds you caused yourself And you can't even run away, when i no longer there to blame Lost like a castaway who couldn't read the map And understand the curves that got me here You abandon me Let go of my hand and let me get lost And yet found me at the end of the path Just to devour me

Pain

Roll the Dice if you’re going to try, go all the way. otherwise, don’t even start. if you’re going to try, go all the way. this could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives, jobs and maybe your mind. go all the way. it could mean not eating for 3 or 4 days. it could mean freezing on a park bench. it could mean jail, it could mean derision, mockery, isolation. isolation is the gift, all the others are a test of your endurance, of how much you really want to do it. and you’ll do it despite rejection and the worst odds and it will be better than anything else you can imagine. if you’re going to try, go all the way. there is no other feeling like that. you will be alone with the gods and the nights will flame with fire. do it, do it, do it. do it. all the way all the way. you will ride life straight to perfect laughter, it’s the only good fight there is.