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Usually trying to force my world in any direction backfires or just doesn’t work so maybe I should just leave it up to the Cosmic God who Decides My Daydreams.

Find that they struggle to talk fluently if they’re forced not to gesture with their hands?

Does anyone else have a similar thing that they can’t daydream properly if they stop themselves from doing a certain thing?

Like for me, if I can’t act out the daydream, even in some small way that other people probably wouldn’t notice, it becomes really difficult to actually immerse myself in the daydreams.

I can barely cope with my own reality - that’s the whole reason I “went MaDD” in the first place. Constantly overthinking and brooding about the seemingly unsolvable problems of the world and being expected to have the answers is just too much to expect out of a twenty-three-year-old.

Out of anyone really.

And want to acknowledge that this isn’t an original post idea, but I can’t find the original one and don’t know if any of you have seen it yet (if I find it or if someone has seen it let me know and I’ll tag/reblog the original poster)

BUT

I want you to know that you are officially free of any bad luck that may have occurred or may in the future occur due to those posts that are like “if you don’t reblog XYZ bad thing will happen”.

Those posts are awful for anyone, but especially those with anxiety issues or depression or any mental health issues really. They work to guilt you into reblogging simply so the person gets more notes, and are cruel and selfish even if they don’t mean to be.

So you are officially freed from any responsibility to reblog those posts. You can choose not to reblog them, and nothing bad will happen.

"Rex pulled his long black coat around himself and clung to the row of lockers along the wall, waiting for the crowd to clear, wondering exactly when he had become invisible. And why. Maybe it was because the daylight world meant so little to him now."

Scott Westerfeld, 'The Secret Hour', Midnighters, p.9

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As someone who daydreams for hours every day, I understand this quote a lot. The "daylight" world, better known as the "real" world, ceases to exist for most of the day. You do what you need to do to get by in it, but in the end it doesn't hold your heart like your world does.

Thinking about it, a lot of Rex's thoughts, feelings, and behaviours throughout the series are similar to those of an immersive or maladaptive daydreamer (I am the former, not the latter - precariously). It's what's on his mind most of the time, he's always doing research and reconstructing the language and history of the midnight world, it makes him feel confident and capable, and it's where he knows he fits. He has had a rough life, and it makes sense he'd dive headfirst into a mysterious, potentially dangerous world for safety and solace.

Currently re-reading one of my favourite series of all time. Feeling very lonely in a fandom that seems so scattered and faded. If you've never read it, and young adult fantasy/sci-fi is your jam, then I'd highly recommend!

These aren't my copies, by the way, as the books are apparently out of print (?) and I can only read them on iBooks. Found this picture of the covers online 😊