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i didn’t say yes, i didn’t say i’ll think about it. i guess this was a long time in waiting. i CAN confirm that i’m the original owner of this blog (s**********[email protected]) and this was the last url i used, and the last name i went by was jelli. the other thing i can confirm is that i used to date max (@/fuyuhikolovemail) until october 2017 when we abruptly broke up. it was for the better. however, in my humbling opinion, max is a danger to the people around him, and based on how he both was sexually and mentally abusive to me, i think it’s my job as a citizen to tell other people about what he’s done.

warning ahead for mentions of c(oc)sa, abuse, rape, incest, lots of that nasty stuff.

let’s start at the very beginning of the end. this is all going under a readmore because i don’t want to clog up somebody’s poor dashboard.

Hi, it’s still me the original owner of this blog. You would think after a year Ash (changed name from Max) would have changed but they have not!

Thanks to the new friends I got they all have evidence of Ash being abusive still, perhaps even worse than what I had gathered. I won’t tell their names due to protection of the innocent but I will post what they give me.

EDIT: NOW UNDER A READMORE, WARNING FOR EDs, SELF HARM, SUICIDE, VIOLENCE, AND SEXUAL HARASSMENT

i didn’t say yes, i didn’t say i’ll think about it. i guess this was a long time in waiting. i CAN confirm that i’m the original owner of this blog (s**********[email protected]) and this was the last url i used, and the last name i went by was jelli. the other thing i can confirm is that i used to date max (@/fuyuhikolovemail) until october 2017 when we abruptly broke up. it was for the better. however, in my humbling opinion, max is a danger to the people around him, and based on how he both was sexually and mentally abusive to me, i think it’s my job as a citizen to tell other people about what he’s done.

warning ahead for mentions of c(oc)sa, abuse, rape, incest, lots of that nasty stuff.

let’s start at the very beginning of the end. this is all going under a readmore because i don’t want to clog up somebody’s poor dashboard.

a long two piece message from a friend i’ll keep anonymous. max is in a polyam relationship with 3 people right now (as far as i know). if max can’t give his affection to all his partners equally he is failing at the very structure of a polyam relationship. the fact that he has to use something as lucrative as kin to connect romantically with others shows how weak his relationships are. the “emotionally manipulative” part about me was actually about me having... emotions. like crying when max’s “alter” jake told me to go fuck myself. and crying, like a lot of teens would. what a shocker. i don’t know who mac is and the only person i ever expressed a crush on was one named “johnny” and i immediately regretted posting about it. the person i “cheated on with”, i’ll call them f, i regret that too. i wanted to bring up dating f to max, and when i did, he immediately got aggressive and blamed me for everything. f tried to defend me by saying i was trying to figure out how to tell him (and i was). the “guilt trippy and manipulative tone” of my friend’s messages are actually just simple messages asking about what they’d done. all of this is EXTREMELY silly. it’s absolute bullshit.

ok, this one’s long. so my friend asked about being blocked, and here’s all of max’s friends ganging up on them. they absolutely refuse to explain anything, and instead result to tormenting (well, more like just insulting) them! they refuse to be civil. they refuse to do anything that’s remotely close to good.

shocker: max admits to faking suicide. this was way back with leon, and i can only provide word of mouth, and it was only a ploy to get leon’s attention. but he put all his friendgroups through extreme stress. i was the only person who was let in on it. all of max’s other friends were not. this was HUGE too - “peach” made it sound like he ended up in the hospital and everything.

max’s “alters” are dangerous fake beings. “claire” apparently “cut herself” because of me (she was also stated to be a trans girl - this isn’t possible because max is a trans boy, therefore claire cannot experience the specific downs that trans women experience i.e. transmisogyny), “dirk” and “jake” would torment and belittle me, “wally” made me feel like i had to stay even though he didn’t really love me, the list goes on and on. he uses the “alters” to manipulate and guilt trip people when he doesn’t want to get blamed for it. he has this system just to hurt people, and he caused enough damage to me to traumatize me from the graphic depictions of rape, abuse, pedophilia, and incest that were “happening in his system”.

the proof is in the putty, folks. max only has this “system” to use and abuse others.

max, when you find this and read this - and this is a personal message from me to you. yes, from your old boyfriend, jelli. i want your friends to all read this callout with a blank mind. every single piece. until they reach the very end. and i want you to let them think. no, you don’t talk. you shut your greasy little trap for a few minutes and you let them think for themselves for once instead of you bringing out “peach” again to talk about how you’re in your corner having a panic attack. and you let them digest and really consider how you’ve damaged me, an old friend, and how they’ve been damaged themselves. then you really, really deeply consider if your system is real. then, you look at yourself critically. you tell yourself, “what can i do in the future to not hurt others?” then you tell everybody how you’ve lied and lied and lied to them for your own sick personal gain. and you step away from all your friends. yes, from hal, john, dave, michael, every single one of them. you give them space. you let them think for a very very long time. you let them think if they want to date you or be your friend anymore. and if they say no, you leave them and never ever return. and if they say yes, think about if that’s because of your manipulative ultimatums.

then in the future when you’re like me, all alone, with nothing better to do than to fester and boil over how poorly somebody treated you, you’ll finally know how jelli feels.