Chad

I was just doing programming practice for one of my subjects and this past few days has just been too shitty. Literally nothing was going well for me. I thought it was going to be the best like few days for the month and it just sucked

I got dumped a few weeks ago (? idk if youd call it that i would call it that because i dont really want to break up with her but oh well) and it just reminded me of 2021 and being the one who initiated the break up sequence (im still talking to the same person btw) idk i just dont have like INTEREST interest in woman but like im just hung up on her anyway shes living her best life and i dont want to interrupt any of it im like relistening to soy pablo roy pablo old joji stuff like chloe burbank era and some tyler idk im just so fucked up emotionally but i dont wanna show it to any of my friends

also been dealing with imposter syndrome (i dont know what it actually entails i just wanna add it to sound cool LOL) my siblings are off to do really cool stuff and since we came from cool parents (like actually sick theyre the best parents i could get) my friends (which mostly are their friends) have been expecting me to be cool too (but im not cool gg) theyre good looking and im sitting with my fucked up face ridden with like huge splots of acne scars i just see myself as a disappointment idk maybe thats why she dumped me because im ugly as fuck or maybe because im just like hotdog water lookin because like holy fuck my face is so fucked i keep looking back at old me pre pandemic and wish i kept up with skincare routines to be fair i was like fucked up at the time i had nothing going for me fuck man thats probably the reason i got dumped oh well too bad so sad maybe kll yourself next time bucko