charlie

cant you see what your doing to me

threatinging to dislocate my knee

i can hear you laughing while im crying

just like him at the same time, i feel like im dying

but go on spit in my eyes, spray your food over my face

i wont comment, wont tell you its a waist

apologising to you with out even knowing why

but the way i cared is systematically

etched in to my own body radically

permanently engraved

and i’ll be enslaved

for the rest of my god damn life

and you will go on to be a nice house hold wife

or tell kids they shouldn’t do what you made me do

because really you haven’t got a clue, do you?

you’ll go to bed thinking you conscience is saved

while you leave me con-caved, decade for an age

i wonder if you even know the tears and blood i lost

while you and you friends talked about the ‘new hot goss’

and i can say i really don’t care but it’s all still there

still dripping down my sink while im losing my hair

you say i never waited for you

but you never waited for me too

never a look never a word

unless i shine my teeth sweet like lemon curd

and present to you preen to you asking

for just some lasting

sense of friendship - not an object for you to bid

but you never saw me like that, you never did

or did you? this is the thing i really don’t know

but no ill laugh it off come on let me put on a show

i’d say hurt me again, go on do it i dare

but we both know all i can ever do is stare