hi, this is a very serious post. please read the entire thing.
I’m aware of the anonymous messages and rumors being spread about me and sent to my partner. I know when it comes to situations like this, “feeding the trolls” will make things worse but so be it.
First thing I would like to address: I’ve had periods of severe emotional dysregulation and I know I haven’t always handled distress in healthy ways. I regret the impact that had on people close to me. But some of the claims being spread about me now are exaggerated, false, or stripped of context.
Second thing I would like to address: I need to address the claims that I’m “abusive,” because at this point the word is being thrown around so casually that it’s losing all meaning.
I have struggled with overwhelming mental health episodes before, and I know there were times where I handled distress poorly. I’m not denying that. I regret the impact those moments may have had on people close to me. I was horrible at times to my ex partner, who I will not be naming, but she also behaved cruelly to me at times as well. We were mutually not healthy for each other, and we have been separated since March 22nd and no contact with mutual blocking since May 9th.
I am not racist toward trans women of color, I do not fetishize trans men, and I am not “pro-incest.” Some of these accusations are based on bad-faith interpretations of things I’ve said in private conversations and communities. Saying I personally do not engage with certain fictional content while also not supporting harassment campaigns against strangers online is not the same thing as endorsing that content.
I am also not going to engage in an endless anonymous callout culture where serious accusations are spread indirectly through rumors, screenshots, and anonymous messages instead of handled honestly and directly.
If I’ve hurt someone personally, that’s something that should be addressed directly and honestly — not through harassment campaigns aimed at my relationship or attempts to isolate me socially.
Please stop involving my partner in this. You are not "protecting" or "saving" him by overwhelming him with ludicrous anonymous hate mail because you are upset that I have removed you from my life as my right as a human being with boundaries.
It is completely up to the people I have hurt in the past whether they forgive me or not, and I respect that either way. But accountability should leave room for reflection, growth, and change. At a certain point, ongoing anonymous harassment stops being a frugal attempt at accountability and becomes punishment for its own sake. I am continuing to reflect on myself privately and seriously, but I will not allow every vulnerable or unstable moment of my life to be weaponized against me forever.
I’m going to take a hiatus and keep my anons off until I feel like I can come back here. This has been going on for too long, and I ask those who are doing this to seek a hobby.
Mutuals, please feel free to reblog this and message me privately if you wish to keep contact with me via Discord. Thank you!
Here is the proof of harassment:
kianamaiart
theartofmadeline
ellievsbear
origamiaround
blakekathryn
