ASTERIN (HE/THEY)

sneaking out has always been such a funny concept because literally WHERE do you wanna go that bad. its not that serious have a house party at 2pm on a saturday if you wanna hang out with your friends come on

to truly love a character you must hate on every little thing they do like your very best friend. ew why is he standing like that. but /affectionate. ew i hate him thats cringe. but with every ounce of adoration in my soul

the secret to being unaffected by the start of a new week of work/school is to be so tired of the routine you don’t even realize it’s the beginning again

yk one time i read (the first ten pages of) a book where all three main characters had random names that were like objects or noises or conpletely unrelated names and i lowkey wanted that and now im realizing that i have gotten that except mine are ashtray and aspirin. as in someone said ashtray in my vicinity and i looked up on instinct. and i earned the name aspirin by being the friend who always carries ibuprofen.

guys the thing that was wrong was my gender im currently trying to figure out how to handle that in a way that doesnt require making decisions on five second notice because the only one of those i can get away with is changing my nails and i already cleaned and cut them all the way down and all the colors i have in my house are evil i spent an hour violently scrubbing that shit off last night

i pride myself on being generally intelligent (and at least vaguely self aware) yet i can never quite seem to verbalize whatever must be wrong at any given point in time

im tired but

wait why do multiple adults follow me im scared .. do you guys know (i dont care because im never on here except to say a thing and then leave but… im 15 yall…)

do any of you have ibuprofen ive had a headache for two days

i hold onto fandoms for a really long time but almost everyone im friends with gets like twelve new fandoms daily so i regularly get texts about fandoms i dont even know the name of and then i get slightly sad because theyll outgrow fandoms we shared and then i feel a little stupid still being in the fandom for genuinely no reason ?? does that make sense

yk if my room is gonna be freezing cold id like to at least be able to sleep for more than three hours after tossing and fuckin turning all night come on

yk i keep asking people “do i draw headcanons or read the source material?” and i know reading the source is going to be more beneficial and note responsible but they keep telling me to draw headcanons and i keep listening how do i escape this vicious cycle

genuinely of the very firm belief that theres absolutely nothing wrong with trying to be different. obviously i dont mean faking disability or things outside of ones control that genuinely affect peoples lives and can have consequences but like. be alt and decide its not really all that for you. try out fun styles and themes and if at the end of it you decide nope! i think the norm is good enough for me! thats okay. try out labels and identities and names and if you decide nope! im cis and straight and i like the name my family picked! then thats okay too. and then you get to say “hey i went through all these phases and decided i liked the way i was but i got to find that out and i probably met a ton of interesting people and did a lot of fun things and was exactly who i felt like i was and i got to tell the world i had those phases and be completely authentic because thats all anyone can really do in this life”