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You want to say, I think my father saw something terrible in me the day I was born. You want to say, I think my father has known me better than I have ever known myself. You want to say, I think my father saw himself in me. You stand in the shape you have been made into and the rest moves to you. Your father asks you anything, you turn to face him. He holds out his hand, you rise to meet it. His hand, mighty and guiltless, on the back of your neck, on the side of your face, on your shoulder. He never hurt you, not once. Your body is nothing but hurt.

always an angel, never a god // shane hollander + "not strong" enough by boygenius

There’s always a moment in those profile pieces where they ask about that. Not the teeth. But similar, maybe. Kind of. First time on the ice. Which is similar, sort of. Even if he can’t explain it. Won’t. Won’t try. What was it like? Was it like some piece of destiny locking in? Did you know then? Your body finally complete? Did you feel whole? Were you right, then? Did you just know?

I saw this and had to save this image cause I definitely have a few readers like this.

Paul Butler, “Untitled (Two with Puck – Red)” - Collage, 2018  / Detail from Kazuo Nakamura, Suspended Landscape, 1967 / Heated Rivalry 1x01 / Ralph Ellison, Invisible Man / Detail from Kazuo Nakamura, Suspended Landscape, 1967/ Heated Rivalry 1x04 / David Hannan, Falling from Grace, 2024 / Paul Butler, “Untitled (Two with Puck – Blue)” / Detail from LEE U-Fan, From Line (1976) / Rebecca Bellmore, At Pelican Falls/ Heated Rivalry 1x02 / Heated Rivalry 1x01 / Sally Prasch, Neon Series / Ocean Vuong, Night Sky with Exit Wounds / Robert Matta, Bleuêtre, 1993 / Heated Rivalry 1x04 / Kazuo Nakamura, Blue Reflections, B.C., 1964 / Heated Rivalry 1x02 / Sally Prasch, Shattered Shell / Heated Rivalry 1x02 / Carmen Maria Machado, In the Dream House / Heated Rivalry 1x02 / Kazuo Nakamura; Blue Morning / Detail from Rebecca Bellmore, At Pelican Falls/ Jennifer Walton, Frozen Lake Series / Heated Rivalry 1x04 / John Steinbach, East of Eden / Koichi Nabatame, Morning Mountain Range