some heavy personal events have clogged my mental health in a way i have been drained empty. lately these things made that struggle more tiring and yes, ngl with the following: when general fandom annoying shit becomes too much, even if i avoid it or at least try it..definitely brings the worst in me somehow.

sometimes it gets so just so aggravating that it makes me feel out of place. i'm chosing to back off before i get close to go trainwreck size. due to current ptsd layers that mixed with the crap that prompted me to do this. i take a break when things start hurting and when i know i'll become reckless. i don't want to self destruct and hurt others. not anymore.

i preffer to keep treating fandom as a hobby with no depth where people can be left alone and feel safe. in a way i'm on the right side of proper imput.

i might get back when i'm ready to keep with this place's energy again. idk.