♱Catholic Façade♱

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right....sorry, i think i've read the room now. this will genuinely be my last post mentioning joost klein.

i probably shouldn't have said that about "rational people" leaving, that was rude, i apologize and it certainly wasn't pointed at anyone in particular. i take that back.

i wish there was more info, clear info, on what he may have done. DJ lucas is just some local flop so its not like these allegations are widespread and i doubt any victims want their stories widespread, which i can respect. especially not after it seems like its been years since it happened. i think joost is either unaware that there are allegations against DJ lucas, or maybe he believes they're false for one reason or another. idk. but if anyone knows more about this, i'd love to have a better understanding of the situation. because i can, in fact, be wrong.

many such cases...

im sorry, i really wish i could take it all back and make everyone forget about it......i really wish that..........but those wips are already published. as much as i deeply love my fic and still write in it from time to time, i dont think its ever getting posted quite frankly. i understand anyone unfollowing me for literally any reason atp. as i feel further and further removed from this fandom, and even joost as a person, ive unintentionally kept my fic closer to my chest---realizing it is truly the only outlet i have left to be judgement-free, open, and unseen by people in this fandom. please know i cherished everyones support, i am just as disappointed as you are and full of regret... the things i would tell myself if it was spring of 2024 again.......

literally described ONE person at the joost show as being "built like a brick" because they were tall and muscular and using their body to barrel into people, including my friends and i, just to get closer to the stage. nothing wrong with being built like a brick, dont be an asshole and use your size to push people around at a show. i myself am plus sized, the friends that i have are plus sized, i live a life fully and happily surrounded by fat people. hope this helps.

idk how to tell you joost is a loser too. a loser who means well and has a big heart with a lot of love in it and a lot of poetry in it, but still a loser nonetheless. joost is so lame for working with someone openly racist and transphobic, joost is so lame for being friends with someone who has sex pest/rape allegations against them, joost is so lame for being petty over a decision he made 3 years ago, etc etc etc. to me, with all due respect to his mental illness, i'd rather have no friends at all than be friends with half of the people he hangs out with and actively platforms. idk...maybe if people stopped asking where 'zonder jou' is and started asking why he still hangs out with alleged rapist DJ Lucas i wouldn't have to think joost is such a loser. ***i still like joost, i seriously dont hate him [i have to always make that clear !!!], i just dont think he could grow a backbone to save his life unfortunately...

omg hiiii glad you came back <33 i had a feeling you were talking about snap knees ! snap knees are nostalgic for me, all of the dolls i had growing up had them of course. bratz still use snap knees but nowadays modern barbies have those stiff, non-posable, hollow plastic legs and i really hate them, the quality decline is so unfortunate. but i mostly stick to collecting monster high as an adult now. i still collect some barbies [mostly 90's & 00's], my scene, and bratz with snap knees but i do prefer the full articulation of monster high dolls and deluxe barbies.

something deeply, deeply uncontrollably, insatiably yearning happens to me when i see this man in face paint...

as for my fic…i don’t know…i said recently that i don’t really plan on posting my writing anymore. i really hate being a disappointment but that’s exactly how i feel after over a years worth of work has been put into my fic and it’s still not even halfway done and likely will never be seen. i was just updating my files the other day and i decided to do a total word count because i was curious. currently that fic is sitting at 51k+ words and over 20 chapters. yet not a single one is finished. at this rate even if i post one or two chapters, you’ll never end up with the finished fic in it’s entirety. that is, in my opinion, not even worth putting out. like i probably should’ve never shared the wips to begin with because i always figured this was going to happen. every single fanfiction i’ve ever written has ended up in limbo at some point, never to be finished, because i just cannot seem to ever finish writing before my hyperfixation goes away. i don’t want to post things that are unfinished. the encouragement i received on my wips really helped me, but i can’t just keep posting snippet after snippet after snippet with no follow-through. that feels so wrong. sooooo idk man, i’m just really sorry. maybe one day i’ll upload everything that’s half-finished and never talk about it again.