call me sushka

hope you get some good sleep and no more shitty anons i love you art its so cool

i know lot of people who saw my post there enjoyed it and im really happy it made someone happy and feel seen, its so precious to me. its the purpose of my art, to make someones day and make them feel emotional. im a sensitive and anxious and overthinking as hell person who never received negative attention and false accusations for their art before and its a wild concept to me, so facing it for the first time hurt me and made me realise maybe im not ready fpr allat lol.... not ma thing to constantly argue with anyone about anything sorry not sorry

my tweet accidentally reached the wrong audience, who know nothing about me as a person, what i like and what my opinions on things are. fuck im a new account will less than 20 posts and ive never talked about what i think about lot of specific things before. why do you say such unpleasant things about me before getting to know me. just from one post? thats a normal thing on that platform and its really horrible. never normalize death wishes on anybody and mass bullying its not ok :(

i knew twitter was all about controversies, i just never thought it would touch me personally? first few days were nice, before i made an accidental hit tweet and some reactions to it made me snap and quit and lose all my hopes for this app

there were good people on there, maybe i even wanted to become more than just acquaintances with them and stuff. on the exact same wavelength as me. and a LOT of support!!! like i said 80% or so. and as i said, i made this art for only the specific audience i thought will see it, for these 47 followers i had at that time. but eh. it even reached non hs people lmao . im saying huge thank you for everyone who made me feel better about my art there. it boosted my confidence and ehaaahehjai#!)#)$) yeah. sending my biggest hugs

and im sorry for all my friends who had to listen to this speech for thousand times already from me personally lmao i just cant let go of this shit. im really hurt it ended like that and some people now think im a transphobe and hate trans women when im not and dont. who cares about what SOME people think though doesnt mean theyre correct :p