WALKING THROUGH THESE HALLS, all she can think about is benny -- and the anger that she feels when she thinks about the life they forced him to lead. to constantly look over his shoulder. to fear being loved, being touched -- even being near his family. who knew what was happening to him, in a bunker somewhere. the sound of the crash outside had rattled jamila in its own right, another unknown factor in this entire situation. what happened? why did this feel like a punishment for something she hadn't done?
the sound of the other's voice does in fact bring her back to reality -- and although she appears suprised to be spoken to, jamila doesn't turn them away. " i donno, darlin'. wish i could give ya a better answer. " jamila speaks, gentle as she always was -- even if she was both physically and emotionally tired. " it's really comin' down out there. tried peakin' out. and i could barely see a thing. " at the mention of the cards, the waitresses eyes perk up as her mind rolls through games. " well -- how many card games exist? sounds like a perfect time t'learn 'em all... and i'd be happy t'be your partner. if you're interested. "
"i know." her sigh betrays only small discomfort, as though she's been trapped an hour extra to wait out a rainstorm, not something more serious. it could now for the rest of eternity for all they knew with how weather ebbed and flowed. the world a snow globe, and all of them little figurines in their precise locations. "i'd prefer the bakery." her thoughts wandered briefly to tomas, whom she hadn't been separated from in her whole life. who, was not here, and was not anywhere she knew of yet.
how many existed! what a question, mijn god. the space between what ade knew and couldn't ever understand was a chasm, but she kept the optimistic look towards what she could teach. "there's...." they hummed thoughtfully, trying to consider one that would be familiar starting territory. as with most of ade's interests, it was always a strong start before fizzling into the next exciting topic. it seemed as though this topic would have to outlast the snow! "go fish."
now that would be easy to teach someone who didn't already know the rules. the continual shout of go fish! echoing in the compound and making it a much more pleasant space than the current tone. "yesâ i need a partner." the reminder that they were still in their home, the place around them hadn't shift so quickly underfoot. and, for the simpler things, "to remember the list."
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Unfortunately for everyone, when Sue wants to be, he can absolutely be focused on an objective, taking a situation very seriously, even being perfectly cooperative. The key to it being, when he wants to be. Right now, with no one to really take up the mantle of making sure important people are safe and taken care of, and thus Sue has taken it upon himself.
Having already made sure Bash, Sullie, and Joni have found one another and have a place safe enough that they can lock if shit hits the fan, he's been walking around with a piece of paper and a pencil to make a crude map of this maze to the best of his abilities, while keeping his eyes out for more people he deems importantâand avoiding those who he'd prefer didn't know of his or his friends' existence, of which there are quite a few running about the place.
It's how he finds his way aside Ruth, casually sliding his hand into hers as he puts the pencil behind his ear. "What's a cute girl like yourself doing in a shitty place like this?" he asks, shoving the map into the back pocket of his jeans. With a slight tug, Sue pulls Ruth to the side, eyes moving from one person to the next, as though threat-assessing, before they move back to her again.
"Got anyone important here? I've a place we can sleep without having to worry about..." Sue glances sideways at the handful of people currently in the room. "Well. You never know. My sister's there too."
"i came for the atmosphere." she tried a smile, though it was clear the mood didn't have much in the way of light-heartedness. there were too many unknowns in the shadowy outlines of the world around them, the murmured talk about supplies already run thin, tensions wearing just as quickly. ruth's one skill in these situations was her knowledge, the need for a level head to prevail. it was what she had spent her life training for. it was felt in the flutter of her heart, the question of how she could possibly do more.
"yanni and ari are here. and, i don't have..." the first clue on how to keep herself alive in these situations. sleep hadn't even crossed her mind, a safe place to close her eyes didn't seem possible.. she opened her mouth to start listing the other names of every familiar face, a class roster of those to protect against elements unknown, everything unknown. "i'm just trying to keep a medical space."
she held his hand still, studying the long gaze that kept darting behind her. she trusted his assessment far more than her own. security for something that she felt, but still couldn't name. "what don't we know?"
ade was precisely where she did not belong. perhaps it was something intrinsic, being in a place they knew was wrong. or maybe, it was simply that she missed tomas, the comfort of being snowed in somewhere she could make a warm beverage and wait until there was a break to go out and run in it. there would be none of that here! the serious tone that settled over those in charge made that clear enough.
"how long do you thinkâ until we can leave?" her estimations were, much like she, always the most hopeful they could be. a few more hours always seemed possible, no matter the amount of snow falling. "i hate to be the pity party." or anything that leaned negative,given the expressions on the people's faces around them. "but, i've only got the one deck of cards."
REMI NEVER ASKED ANYONE to understand him, but he had left for the army not for himself -- but because it was the easiest way to send money home. he had never been particularly gifted in any other way anyway. their father had taught him to fight back, after all. but, deep down -- he knows ivy didn't understand. so maybe it's his own cowardice that he doesn't face it, despite having spent his whole life fighting. however, he was always fighting other people's battles, more than anything -- ignoring his own. being a good little soldier and losing his leg in the process, before turning around and following the jackals word. probably the biggest one of all stands right in front of him, causing him to swallow hard.
fuck, why is this so hard?
" i work here, ives. " remi mutters, his usual bluntness replaced by softness with the use of the childhood nickname he had uttered many, many times. he shifts, adjusting in his stance in his usual nervous tick. the only other he often shows is gripping to the sleeve of his hoodie. even if he did work here, his shift was long over. " i 'ppose i should be askin' you that question. " he's not going to beg for forgiveness, because with the money he sent his siblings back -- it gave them a chance. he nearly died in the process.
he works here. the conversation that's been had so many times with each sibling. a shifting fact, something to learn each time they run into each other. there's always something new that she's forgotten to keep up with, that she's purposely decided to leave out when people ask if she has any family.
"i work here." his words are icier in her mouth, unable to resist the urge to recite them back, the same vagueness waiting in the dark. she'd refused the army. she'd gotten close, desperately close to taking any way out of that house, but she'd waited instead. taking the position as a structural worker instead, and now able to claim an even higher rank. "i was promoted."
there's another beat where she pulls her lips into a firm line, willing herself to stop talking there. in another world, she's stronger than her brother, she's not the first to give in. in another world, maybe she's the older sibling. in this one, she's still standing in the street staring at her brother asking why why why. "they moved me the the compound, for the time being."
dr. yanni made his rounds through the floors of the hospital at least once per shift. when he was otherwise on the trauma floor teaching and assisting and picking up the slack wherever needed. it's part of why he was so tired, so exhausted all the time yet always in motion. he needed to check in with all of them, he needed to know they were all okay. if he could solve their problems quick and without involving too much other involvement, it was easier to keep them on board and help him with the ultimate mission which was simply to always help, never hurt which was one of many steps to changing what went on with afterglow research solutions.
ruth was by far one of his favorites, though he would say he didn't have such things. she'd been with them for a long time and she was smart as a whip, among many other like-minded traits she possessed. rounding the corner, he spotted her through the windows to a room. he pushed open the door with raised brows and a slight smile to greet her. "how are things going in here, then?"
ruth looked up from the needle and thread, a glowing smile replaced the need for a hello, matching his own expression with an extra punch of enthusiasm. she always lit up at the arrival of yanni, as much of an acknowledgement as could be afforded in some of the situations they found themselves in. this was not one such case, the tenor of the room had found its way to a relaxed pace as she finished up the last of the suture for her patient. this time, she could even talk in full sentences, void of diagnosis.
"dr. shteynhoyz, meet private garcia." she introduced, never ignoring the third person in the room, even when the conversation would quickly bypass layman's terms. "just a minor training incident," she spared the details that she'd discussed already, turning back to set everything on the suture tray. "you'll be good as new by next week. the nurse will have instructions for you." taking on a few simple injuries was not technically part of her work. in fact, some other surgeons might have scoffed at the idea. but she didn't mind stepping in when the clinics were understaffed, seizing the opportunity to practice each and every skill that might be asked of her.
she stood up to dispose of her gloves and give her full attention to yanni, ready to step out into the hall and on to the next. "i'm still on pace to assist with this afternoon's class." she was used to days running long and demanding every last scrap of energy they could give her. now, it was almost more uncomfortable to be without, yanni was her only hope at some reprieve from a day too straightforward, a shift that was too easy. "unless you're here to tell me you don't need the hands."
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who: @cataclysmcs ( ivy )
where: central market, burnington
unlike the rest of his siblings, xander tended to ignore his past and act like nothing bad ever happened or could happen. it was his coping mechanism, avoidance. but when it came to family, he was actually quite attached to all of them and while he was annoyed that they all seemed to spread out after they were rid of their father, that didn't keep him from seeking them out or making a point to be in their lives whether they wanted him there or not.
blame it on being the baby, or needy, he didn't care.
that's why when he spotted his sister at the market he snuck up behind her and popped out at the last second to grab her shoulders with a quick little 'boo' for effect. "fancy seein' you here miss ivy, i figured you'd be too good to shop in this market when you have access to all that special stuff they must give you at the compound." xander wouldn't know, he'd barely spent any time there and when he did it was usually to visit someone in the hospital or pick up from the morgue when they couldn't deliver. xander leaned down to get a look at what she was holding. "what cha lookin' at? anything cool?"
she flinched away from the stranger's grasp before registering who would even think to run up to her in the middle of the market. the boo reaches her ears only a second before her baby brother's face is glimpsed. her shoulders relax, just enough for her to look back down at the dried bouquets that had initially caught her attention. the sigh she finds in her throat is ragged, more affectionate than people would be lead to believe from the look on her face. that doesn't mean she's glad to see him, it never does. the words had never found any placement in her mind, they didn't pair with leaving.
"you can't spend every day on the compound." not even she, who hoped to avoid just about every scrap of burnington, could stay content with such a closed world. she turned the flowers in her hand once more before setting it down and finally turning to look at her brother straight on. she never had anywhere to store trinkets anyways, she never had much to say to her siblings anymore. the cycle went on. "i'm just browsing."
it was as much of a non-answer as she could give, about as cold as she could ever manage to be with xander. while there might have been a more biting brush off, there was forever that voice in the back of her mind. hadn't she raised him just as much as any parent would have. wasn't she responsible for the twists and turns of his personality in some way, unable to abandon that part of herself in him. "are you working here?"
who : ivy ambrose ( @cataclysmcs )
where : the clary-turner wedding
far be it for beau clary to ever stray far from festivities, particularly when they're centered around a celebration of loveâhis love, unyielding and undying, for the partner he couldn't have even been so bold as to conjure up in his most indulgent of daydreamsâbut after the ceremony, he finds that he needs just a moment to come down from the height of emotions. the last thing he wants, after all, is to appear at his own reception with red eyes and a puffy face, still choking back the last of his tears. even if he doesn't think anyone in attendance would be surprised ( it is no secret that the farmer is deeply attuned to his emotions ) he's been trying to keep it together. it's a happy day, after all. the happiest day of his life, he thinks, having snatched the title from the day he met ziggy. he only needs a moment for it to sink in before he goes to join everyone else.
the field is quiet, peaceful. it's unseasonably warm for november and beau shucks his suit jacket, tossing it onto the tall grass before lowering himself atop it. he thinks about his mama, wonders if she's back home on the farm down in the republic of texas thinking about what's happening up here. even if he understands why she couldn't make the trip, he does wish she could be here. it would've been nice, he thinks, for him and dixie both. he ain't seen her, after all, since he left that night his baby sister called him for help.
beau's so caught up in his own thoughts that he almost doesn't hear anyone approaching. it's not until he catches movement in his peripheral that he looks up, a watery smile tugging at his lips. â oh, â he says with a quiet laugh, â you weren't sent lookin' for me, were ya? i told ziggy i'd come back real soon, figured it's only been a minute. â
the wedding seemed to have brought out everyone in town. though she was unfamiliar with either of the celebrated by name, it had still been enough of an invite to leave behind the politics that her new position had brought unto her. an evening to blend into the background, to pretend to participate in community just long enough for a drink.
but, then, the most curious thing happened to her. she'd seen the face of beau clary before. not on the streets of the central market, or anywhere else it seemed people kept exclaiming she must have known him. she'd nearly forgotten that face, the drawn expression that had been engraved across it, so different from the joy that she saw now. it was almost enough to drive her away from bothering beauâ almost.
"no. they understand." any event was an ebb and flow of people, waiting for a moment when they could catch a breath. weddings most of all, she assumed, though she never had the expectation to know. "i was taking a break," from what, she couldn't answer, "is company alright?"
LOCATION: the mad scientist, outside.
FOR: ivy ambrose.
ANOTHER SHIFT DOWN, AND remi was beginning to feel like he was far too old for this. every inch of his bones ached. and yet, did he know any other way to get by? considering the individuals he had gained from being here -- he wouldn't chose a different path even if one was offered to him. for some reason the post-shift cigarette was hitting even harder than usual, the early november air a welcome refresh as he made some attempt to process the chaos of it all. that is, until his eyes fell on a figure across the way. even if it was dark, a few carefully placed hazy street lights are enough for him to know exactly who it was. he'd know his siblings anywhere. he had spent his entire life identifying them in a crowd, his protective stare running in his blood. " ivy? " he questions, squinting as he makes an attempt to make his vision clearer. it felt like she haunted him these days. he had gone to the army to carve something bigger for all of them, but he knew she didn't see it that way. he thought he had lost his heart a long time ago, or had simply been born without one. and yet? he could still feel it breaking in his chest. " what're y'doin' out here so late? "
her name echos across the road, the two syllables humming with familiarity. the way they trip across the road, said a thousand times and more in every intonation. of course, she's been in town long enough to know that her siblings have returned to burnington, like her. all of them trapped in some cycle, doomed to repeat the unhappiness of remembering. still, there's a moment where she looks at her older brother, and she is going to walk away. it is possible to close her eyes and turn away. she can leave, she has done it before, and she will do it again. he taught her how.
she could keep walking, but for some reason she does not. she sighs, giving into the ache that has settled in her bones long before. the bitterness that seeped through and can't seem to find its home. the light caught her face as she finally looked at him, illuminating what she hoped would be apathy, as she answered his own question. "what do you want?"
"you know, it's absolutely free to just say 'your welcome' and not be a total bitch about it. i wasn't trying to bleed machismo just because i stepped in to tell someone to back off. someone who, mind you, is one my own subordinates, so stepping in is kind of my job anyway." eyes rolling, derek waves off the bartender before they can set down the drink they've prepared, a little huff of air slipping from his nose as his eyes immediately move away from the woman and over the room. still surveying, still examining. points of entry, points of exit. he's not going to be insulted for stepping in and being nice for once and simply let it slide, but he's not going to push the woman into gratitude if she doesn't feel it, nor is he particularly interested in some kind of rambling pseudo-feminist bullshit rant simply because he did. "grow up, not everyone is doing something just because they want to hit it. just because shitty men have tried to nice guy their way into your pants doesn't mean i'm particularly interested in a sour face just because i stepped in to deal with something. cool? cool."
the immediate reproach should surprise her, but his response hardly cause a ripple of tension across her face. his motives don't matter to her, job or not. she's never been interested in what the army offers for those who choose it. stillâ that doesn't stop him from sharing his thoughts with her regardless. "i didn't assume you wanted to hit it." his own phrase is bitter in her mouth, a euphemism that she's already far above using. judging from the way the drinks have been sent away, best not to follow up with what she assumes he wants from the interaction. she simply tries to push past it, her own exasperation just under the surface. "do you make it a habit to save damsels in distress?"
Ashton simply hummed at the echo of the drink name, giving at least a lil hint into it from its context, "mmhmm, I was reading in an old mixology book, back in the day apparently there was a range of cocktails called corpse reviver, because they were strong and good enough to wake one from the dead," he explained as his hands moved on the trained cocktail by now, spending the days before fumbling over the drinks and figuring out the best proportions for this day and age. Old recipes were always a little hard to recreate especially if it was things from the Old World they no longer had.
He couldn't help the light snort at the proclamation of her job, it was biased, it was resentment, it was bitter but it wasn't towards her but the organization she worked for, "I would say I disagree but then I'd be a hypocrite because you liking your job is what saved my life." At this point the words were light and in good humor, they would always disagree on it, that was no way to change it, but didn't effect their relationship. Ashton had long hoped Ruth no longer had it hanging over her, and yet he knew he could never be able to repay her. She was the only one he trusted in Afterglow. And that trust did not extend to the rest of her job and colleagues. "I definitely could, wouldn't be here if I wasn't working," Ash flashed a cheeky grin, more than happy to stay at home, knowing the headache he'd have, but he knew close friends of his might want him here, and he would never like to disappoint them. So might as well be paid to be here.
Her burst of enthusiasm had drawn up laughter from his throat, shaking his head in joking dismay, "cheers," he poured himself just a glass of water to rehydrate and raised that to her as she enjoyed her drink, just slow enough so she didn't choke. He rested his own arms on the counter after cleaning and drying it, chin on palm mirroring Ruth's previous position as she watched him curiously, tables now turned. "I thought you might like lavender in it," satisfied that she liked it, he grinned brightly into his glass. "Then you'll just hafta come back to me in this building for a drink then, simple solution." Ruth had always been kind with her compliments, sometimes ruthless with one's she really didn't like, but it comes with the years of friendship, despite the long gap missing. "For that, I'll give you two songs. Of your choosing."
he could have picked just about any herb in the world to say was her favorite, and ruth would have agreed brilliantly, blindly. who was she to say that lavender was or was not her favorite when it was put in a drink crafted by her friend. and it was delicious. she didn't mind the idea of having a specialâ something permanent to return to again and again. her stomach would probably thank her on the mornings after nights out if she didn't switch every other drink.
"a necromancer with a twist, a corpse reviver..." paired with the halloween imagery, they weren't exactly the kindest depictions of her job. but, ashton was always fair, he was always honest with her. and she knew that they had a fair amount of disagreement on what exactly she could and could not do within the afterglow compound. "i'm not a magician. just a doctor." such conversations were easy to tuck away with another swig of her drink and a smile.
"you might be here if you weren't working." she had little authority on such matters after all this time. but out of ten invitations to an event, at least one had to be accepted. she would take those odds every time if it meant another night slipping back into old laughs with her friend. "just think, you could have dressed up too!" he wouldn't have gone that far, still she liked to ink it wasn't just the money that put them in these spots. her gentle ribbing was thrown off immediately by his next words.
"no take backs!" she seizes the offer that he's placed on the table, knowing its more than she'd get any other time than this precise moment. her hands hit the bar top as though she's slammed the gavel on an auction that was too good to be true. "do i have to use them both tonight?"
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"you know, if you're going to bother people, best not to do it around people who won't put up with it." the words drip like ice, and the person on the receiving end of them seems, at least, smart enough to get the message, though a cursory comment has to be tossed derek's way for the sake of pride, he supposes. he hears enough on a daily basis that it rolls off, and his eyes linger on the retreating figure until it's been completely swallowed up by the crowd before his attention turns away from it and back to the person now freely sitting at the bar.
there's a small nod to the bartender, a silent signal to refill both empty glasses now resting on the table, and he offers a small smile and nod of his head before bothering to speak again. "shame to see such a pathetic attempt at a pick up, i truly thought that we as a society had moved past 'what's your sign' and 'i lost my number, can i have yours'. truly, there must be some ancient scrolls somewhere with these benign pick up lines that i never got to see growing up. you alright?"
"i had it under control." she knows derek kim, primarily through his wife, although that hardly makes her qualified to describe the man himself. she'd regretted stepping into hell's gate from the first costume she saw, looking for a cheap reason to plead discomfort and leave. she was unable to get away from making an appearance at the town's biggest events, still learning the difference between worker and officer. and now, her swift exit had been sent away and replaced with another drink. it's hardly an even trade, but when has it ever been. "or is white knight your outfit for the evening?"
It's been sticking to the edges of the forest, sitting in solid, load-bearing branches of its outermost trees, watching people come and go, having funâseeminglyâparticipating in their little rituals and their interactions. They are fascinating, of course, but there's a reason why Cilou sticks to the forest, wandering into the city only for as long as it takes to drop off animal carcasses at the butcher. It's not because it doesn't want to interact. Simply that people don't want to interact with it.
But this is the third day that it's been watching, feet swinging idly, lights twinkling as the sun sets, pumpkins grinning their wicked illuminated grin, and it's been wondering, for days now, what their purpose could possibly be. How the little drinks would taste upon its tongue. If the snacks are as crunchy as they look from this distance.
Patience is a virtue, a virtue that Cilou often does not possess.
Feet hit the ground with a thud, and like a cautious animal filled with terrible curiosity, Cilou makes its way towards the thick of the crowd, eyes as wide as its grin, head tilting slightly at every new smell-sound-sight. It's almost overwhelmingâalmost.
Curiosity leads her to a table, hopping upon the surface of it to sit down with her legs folded under her, staring down at the occupant of said table from the elevated height, head leaning forwardâmaking absolutely no mistake where her attention is focused on. "What are you doing?"
"me?" the appearance of a new person at their table did little to shock ade. she was, as always, thrilled to have another person who wanted a conversation with her. how lucky was this! her pencil tapped on the page in front of her, a nearly illegible scrawl of different ingredients and their innumerable combinations. her answer is easy and unguarded, "i'm working on a new gebakje for the bakery! perhaps a profiterole of some kind."
she turned her notebook to show the writing, as though it would make sense to anyone other than herself. recipes did not write themselves, they took trial and error in an amount of flour that the bakery didn't have. so, sometimes she had to write, to figure out where to go next. it was hardly her favorite, but someone to bounce ideas off of was the perfect gift! she seized the opportunity quickly: "what are you doing right now?"
Despite her good-naturedness about the whole thing, Ellis frowned. He should be glad that a knocked-over drink is about the only incident that has occurred thus far in the night, but it didn't make him any less apologetic. He forced his shoulders to unknot as she smiled up at him, at the very least grateful he hadn't bumped into someone less forgiving.
His features lighten a bit at the mention of Ash. Perhaps it's the drinks that make everything feel a little less heavy, but he lets the usual heaviness of those years and the distance between them pass through with little more than a barb to his heart. "Dunno, he might just laugh at how ridiculous we look." Dazed blues turn apologetic again, and he shakes his head as she lifts the napkin from her dress. "Least we're matching, I guess?" he tries, lifting his own napkin to reveal a similar blotted stain on the shirt that is not, he reminds himself, his own. "I'm real sorry, Ruth. Your costume was great, for what it's worth. Maybe it's-- it's real dark in here. People probably won't even notice." Ellis smiles a bit, then looks at his shirt when prompted, and the smile drops. "Not really -- I didn't pick it. But the clothes aren't mine. Guess I've got a trip to Bubble Trouble in my future."
"he will definitely laugh at how we look." she corrects his words, the conjured image already clear in front of her. of course they would find each other in the midst of some clumsy turmoil. she never could simply be cool in the front of ash's friendsâ she'd have to settle for forgiving.
"you don't have to apologize." she's not forceful, but she does mean it. the napkins find their way to a garbage can as she tries to wave off the rest of the words. she wasn't exactly going to win the costume contest, but his thoughts are nice, exchanged with her own platitudes of "accidents happen!"
and, when they weren't life threatening, she was poised to take them all in a stride. "you know, all the best outfits have a second look." there was nothing about a spilled drink that could ruin the night, she would find a spin for whatever he said. she looked down at the stain again, pondering that likelihood of turning it into some new idea, before his own admission reached her ears. "you didn't pick it?" she reassesses the fit of the suit, the detail in the makeup, "someone knows you very well."
"let me know when," although the trip to the laundromat doesn't sound exiting, it'll probably be better than trying to throw the stained dress in with the rest of her clothes and hope for the best. an "that way we keep the damage to a minimum." but that adventure wouldn't be for a while yet. for now, they still had all of the party around them, and drinks to refill.
"--um -I.. " Tomas could barely get anything out before he felt the tease come on, "n-no I didn't," he huffed slightly. Perhaps more embarrassed by the fact that he was embarrassed being in the presence of a intimate moment of another couple and he definitely did not feel like he belong there, even if it was just in passing. "There's.. I think people.. just um- need their privacy.." he lowered his head pressing his palms to cover his eyes in the heat radiating off his face, words almost a whisper to make themselves pretend to not even be there.
At this point the dance floor might just be better than the awkwardness here as long as he was with someone it made it to squeeze pass them over the stairs, he was about to agree and simply go with it out of desperation and Ruth despite mostly knowing her studying in the dead of quiet, he knew she always had a brightness to her, like a radiant sun to can't help but gravitate to, partying with Ruth would be just as fun even for someone like Tomas who hated to party. If he had to he rather it be with someone like Ruth.
But she was kinder than most, absolutely seeing his cry for help and offered an olive branch that would be significantly less exciting for her. "--really?" He blinked as he lit up, "I mean- yes, yes.. me too, let's.. go, somewhere, -not there." He lightly tugged onto her sleeve and let her lead the way in wherever she wanted to go, except the direction of interrupting two people sucking their faces off. Once they were far away enough for Tomas to relax, he piped up to his curiosity, "where were you before heading back to dance? I.. I've never been in here before, it's so huge.. I-- might get lost in all the floors."
"right." she bit her lip to stifle a laugh at the embarrassment of the scene that tomas had stumbled into. she was no better than he was, a stranger to all public displays of affection, intoxicated or not. but, her reaction was still to laugh, let the dizzy joy of the evening take the place of any other sentiment.
"i was on the gluttony floor," the night's mission to try all the drinks still had plenty more before it could be accomplished. but, if she knew tomas as well as she liked to think she did, he wouldn't be one to join on that particular journey. the other part of the floor seemed to hold much more of his interest, "surprised i didn't see you there!"
she took a turn, hoping that it was in the right direction to find a gasp of fresh air. usually, finding the exit was not in her plan. but, this was just a break! everyone needed one from time to time. "i usually just follow the sound of dance music." she wasn't one for the lust floor, using it as the halfway point in all her traversing instead of as a stopping point. but otherwise, hell's gate was daunting, even if someone knew how many floors there were. "what made you finally decide to check the place out?"
The stairs are crowded, the music is too loud, the lights flicker too fast, but none of that bothers her -- not the way this does. She had ducked out of the main floor hoping for a moment to breathe, but then a familiar voice, high and tinny, cuts right through her. Ruth skips into view, an easy smile already forming like she didn't once stand elbow-deep in Ani's spine.
Ani's stomach drops so fast she feels it in her toes. She frowns, and the irritation is what replaces it. Anger, such a familiar feeling these days, her teeth sharpened and ready to snap and bite, a sensation so overwhelming she has no choice but to lash out. It wasn't like she could avoid seeing familiar faces from Afterglow, but it rocks her just the same. They get to live normal lives. They don't wake up sweating and heavy when the metal in their spine misfires. Ani clenches her jaw. "I guess I look a little different off the operating table. Or without a needle in my arm," Ani says bluntly, staring at the woman before her. "You sure look like you're having fun, though."
"iâ" the anger always catches her off-guard, as though she's suddenly missed a step somewhere. one minute everything was aglow, and the next she's careening in the dark towards destinations unknown. she hadn't ever expected to be so thoroughly rejected for her work. she saved lives, she helped the best she could. for so long, there hadn't been anything more to her job. but now, she had only ani to look at, to try and reason with.
"it is a party." her defense is clear: she doesn't have one. as always, she turns open-armed towards someone, the best that she could provide on offer. the decisions that mattered had all been made, nothing in hell's gate would fix that. "you look a lot better." if she didn't have to strain to be heard above the chaos, her tone might have been been genuine, but still she persevered. "the lighting really suits you."
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"y'know i didn't think i was going to be here either but here we are." if that wasn't already obvious by his severely underwhelming costume which consisted of a thick black line of face paint under each of his eyes and his old football jersey from school. he looked her over trying to figure out what she was dressed as. "are you, um, i'm sorry i am having a hard time trying to figure out what you came as, care to give a bad detective a hint?" he laughed, still trying to move to the music as he did. emil was trying to keep a low profile after seeing at least two of his ex's siblings in the crowd so far. the peacekeeper didn't know what they thought of him and he wasn't looking to find out, either.
she didn't have to take a guess at what emil was dressed up as. at least when he went for low effort it still created a cohesive image, nostalgia withstanding. "oh, i am...taking suggestions." she wished she had remembered to grab some kind of accessory that could have complimented a sea creature. she left all her good ideas at work, alongside the overtime at the clinic.
"i could be a princess." she looked down at her own rather non-descript blue outfit, a consideration for something that might be easier to identify. "just lost my crown." now there was an idea for her to consider, though she had even less to barter than she'd had walking in. "there's a case for you, detective."
THE WILD & WONDERFUL APPALACHIA WELCOMESâŠ
ivy florence ambrose as written by jen ( she / her ).
â± affiliated with EAST ATLANTIC GOVERNANCE
â± working as STRUCTURAL OFFICER
â± has taken up residence in AFTERGLOW COMPOUND
â± born on FEBRUARY 14TH ( 33 )
â± identifying as CIS WOMAN ( SHE / HER )
â± known to be INDEPENDENT, PRACTICAL, COMPOSED
â± also know to be MERCURIAL, INSENSITIVE, DISCONTENTED
â± portrayed by WILLA FITZGERALD
DIGGING DEEPER.
TW: child abuse, emotional abuse, death, neglect
ivy remembers the screaming matches first: the way that her older brother used to yell and yell. the words were barely intelligible, the rage always thick in the air as though the son could outwit the father once and for all. and she always simmered in the background, her own words hastily spat out under her breath for no one to hear. it was better to conceal unhappiness than to try and express any of it. she didnât want the kind of attention that came from her parents. she didnât need all those harsh words and shattered pieces. what did they ever amount to?
she remembers her own unhappiness next. flitting from room to room, trying to make sense of how this could be a life. how she could grow up in the midst of all the turmoil and still become anything at all. she turned everything inward; she buried every emotion, letting it all make her sick with hatred and longing. she thought of all of those people around her who knew they had it better, who knew that there would be no relief for her. at least, until she could escape.
and then there was the baby, the last sibling, and the loss that came crashing after. the ambrose household went even further downhill in a matter of months, intolerable with violence and anger. as though their mother had been the linchpin that kept the family together. she hadnât been, ivy knew she hadnât been anything at all. but, it wasnât until their father tried to lay a hand on her youngest sibling that it all came tumbling down. remington hit back, hard, trying to make a point that didnât stick. and then he was gone. disappeared to make something of himself, to try and destroy the angry man that was still screaming in his head. whatever the reasoning was, she could only ever define it as one word: resigning.Â
remington left her to the violence that he started, to be the mother who had died and left them all. she was no good at picking up the pieces. she didnât want the responsibility of raising the younger two siblings; she didnât want any of it at all. and it was obvious that they didnât want her. she was hardly the parent that theyâd come to trust. she could not be her older brother, no matter how many nights she tried to put a meal on the table or help with homework. it all felt fruitless, a battle that had already been lost years ago. she knew it was her fault, self-sabotage an art that she had now mastered.Â
so, the moment that the opportunity presented itself for her to run, she took it just as fast as her other siblings had and would. she went on to higher education, studying for a career as a structural worker. she saw the position as her last chance at freedom, keeping her forever on the move. and for a while, she did traverse as far and wide as one could be allowed. she worked on whatever project was next without discernment, as long as it kept her moving. she could be found sketching blueprints and monitoring teams, inventorying supplies and checking field repairs. she could be found with a suitcase always packed, serene as she waited for the next chance to bolt.Â
her recent promotion to structural officer came after a freak bridge collapse in one of the sectors killed a team that included the prior officer. sheâs still unsure how she came by the promotion, all she knows is that after years of freedom, sheâs now right back in burnington, dealing with all the issues that sheâd hoped to leave behind. perhaps thatâs what she deserves after all this time, ruining the last images of her family and the career that had, until this point, freed her.
EXTRAS.
cannot recall many childhood memories, and has not seen a therapist for these recurring blackouts. she assumes it is trauma and does not have the introspection to deal with why it is happening.Â
skilled hunter with a bow and arrow. the one activity that their father took his eldest daughter to do was hunting. the trips were a peaceful reprieve for her siblings at least. ivy has a killer shot regardless of weapon, but she favors the old-school better. itâs quieter.Â
wears her motherâs engagement ring out of habit. she found it made professional interactions much easier and also just cannot part with the piece.Â
she wouldnât consider herself a cheater, but sheâs never been able to commit, ever. the moment someone start talking about exclusivity something dark finds coils around her, refuses to let her have it. thereâs no point in trusting a future, when sheâs seen the benefits of family life.
she is medically trained. for many years, ivy memorized first aid and de-escalation tactics and still retains the muscle memory of much of it. if an issue arises, she can substitute for a medic until someone actually qualified arrives. for all the good thatâs done her.