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listen yes nixon is brooding and hot and dick is stoic and hot speirs is crazy and hot but the only man any of us should be dreaming about is harry welsh

listen. listen. with all respect and properiety. the line "i can't let him go by himself he doesn't know where it is." is. insane. romantic or not, the intimacy of that sentence. the fact that dick laughed fondly. the tension on their faces. the fact that we DON'T see their previous conversation about the matter but we know it happened? probably several times over? insane energy.

i think fundamentally the thing about ron and damian is not that they don't like each other they simply do not understand each other outside of band of brothers. damian is actually a lot more like a british nixon in that he went to eton and comes from a prominent family (not nearly as prominent as nix's but still) and ron is a kid from iowa, smack dab in the middle of the country. he did go to yale but he wasn't a legacy. damian's vibe truly is slightly weird british eccentric who has always had money and ron's is awkward midwest dude who doesn't really know how he got here. i think they both really respect each other but simply do not know what to do with each other

i'm more compelled by the writing of titanic (1997) if i think of it as a metaphor for suicide rather than a historic romance although it pains me to give james cameron that much credit

honestly i was in a thrift furniture store today and it's just so amazing that even things from the 80s and 90s were just built different my brain feels frickin alive when i see a warehouse full of sofas and recliners with all different colors and textures and they have the wooden handle on the side for the foot stool thing nothing was gray or made of plastic in there i miss when the world had more texture and buttons

staring at a picture of joe dimaggio: your ability to reflect, grow, and become a better person has beguiled me

it makes me so genuinely mournful when i see teens and young women speak about their dream being to support their husband and watch him live his dream. and this isn't me judging women for their choices. i understand that these women in most cases have choice in the practical sense. but so often, in so many different communities, girls are not shown what it means to live their life with themselves at the center, they are not actually told about the many different sorts of lives they could have. i have a cousin, and she grew up well to do, she went to college, and she's nice and pretty and funny. but she never developed her own internal world without centering a man, first her father, and then her husband, in it. and i don't mean "she never developed" as in she's stupid or a dumb man-loving robot. i mean she was never given the opportunity in her environment to see that as a way to have a happy life, a correct life. today i was talking to a younger coworker and she was commiserating about dating. she said i don't think i'm bad looking and i have all the housewife skills. and it made me sad!! it bothered me. being a homemaker isn't bad, but it is still so expected, on top of having to also be economically solvent. women have to knit the family together, too often their husband comes first, his ambition and wants and goals. and it's all baked into this tradwife conservatism and it's hiding behind a barrage of "it's not feminist to attack women's choices!!" i'm not the inspiration i am the artist! it's my life i am not the wag that cheers on from the sidelines goddamn

i know i'm a writer because every time i look at a line i wrote i experience extreme nausea and anxiety

no offense but doc holliday dripping with consumption white as a ghost i hope haunts me forever doomed to die somehow calculating contained and reckless at the same time is the end of it all he is the only man i will ever know again

say what you want about bruce springsteen and cringe old man behavior but he really does believe in what he is saying and at the end of the day he is so sincere that i'm like let the man speak he has never wavered he wrote a song about police brutality, he's up on stage quoting james baldwin the "great american writer" like the boy from new jersey is talking to you

no i didn't really get into politics with british people when i was living in england i was too busy telling them yes i have a kettle and actually yes i do know what a roundabout is

this is gonna be really triggering to the europeans but a chicagoan pope is cunty i fear