the quiet things that no one ever knows

Since I last saw your face.

I don't understand why you feel like you can't talk to me. I'm always there for you, I'm always trying to cheer you up, help get your life together, I'm extremely supportive of you most of the time, and I give you whatever advice I can to help you. Israel's a big part of my life but so are you. I've known you since Kindergarten. You're like my sister. No one can top that.

I cannot tell my friends everything. It's something I've known about a few friends but I've begun to realize I can't tell any of them everything. It just hurts because I sit here listening to them tell my everything, repeat things, etc. I hear them out, I don't judge them, I give them what advice I can give them, even when they do annoy me and piss me off. It seems I cannot do that with them.

Things I can't talk to them about:

Austin: Pretty much anything that's incredibly personal. He makes too many jokes, doesn't take what I say seriously, and somehow brings everything back to Lisa.

Lydia: Israel, anyone else she doesn't like and annoys her.

Israel: Family, friends, pretty much anything nowadays.

Rene: JUST WANTS TO GET LAID AT THIS POINT.

Please stop.

I don't want to hear anymore.

Things are supposed to get better, easier.