learn to love solitude

You my friend have been MIA lately. Ever since you made the decision to stay home, somewhat “settle”, and get a full time job, you haven’t been around much. Keeping a low profile, not around social media much, psh and you barely blog on here. Just being so occupied. I’m such a difficult person.. I’m not sure about my ambitions anymore, not sure what direction I’m heading to. I wanna be a full time student, I can’t let myself stop now, my younger days is when I want to/should be preparing myself for a career with education. That’s the thing about me, i’m always complaining about inconsistency in my life when I’m the one who doesn’t like repetitive routines. I make it harder for myself to make a serious decision because of the consequences that would come with. I’ve been really thinking of going to get an education on the mainland again to become a CPA

Is this really what I want? I'm torn between the walking away from the problems or staying for the happiness.

So here I am now, infatuated w someone and how sad it is to feel like they’re always hiding things from you. Trust is a big deal when getting into a relationship. Trust is there from the get go, if you don’t have that you won’t have anything. The everything in between love is trust, the worst part is loving someone you don’t trust. They say if you hide something at least be good at it, but why even hide something to begin with. Don’t be a fool and fall in love with a person who you have no trust for, regardless he is not worth it. We did base everything off of our secrets and now there’s nothing left for me to do but leave.