After months of being apart I finally understand myself and everything that went wrong. Iâm fixing myself now as we speak. Iâve tried dating, and even for some that wanted a second date..I just didnât want to. I keep thinking I do but I donât. Admittedly Iâd take my wife back. Hereâs what I discovered, and me and my therapist are making breakthroughs and Iâm changing to my old self.
Delayed ejaculation: so itâs a real problem some people have even though they can cum when masturbating easily. I have this apparently. But there are medications for it.
Control: I am a control freak and did not realize it until after separation. Criticizing the other is part of it, because control freaks want to control everything. But Iâm aware of it and letting it go. Itâs hard but Iâm doing it.
Self esteem: part of the reason for not wanting sex and the control part of me getting worse was about 3 years of a domino effect of tragedy in family and other things. It fucked up my ambition, I became lazy, I lost attention for my wife, I became very out of shape. I didnât even want to go to a job.
Wanting: I always wanted what was on the other side: hence flirting with other girls and such. Thatâs part of the fact that I tend to take things for granted very fast.
Iâm changing myself in all of these traits. Already working out and working, and Iâm changing my mind to a new one that is letting go of these problems. Itâs working, Iâm coming back world.
