And yet to wine, to opium even

but your honour thats my emotional support word i overuse

don’t forget that it’s your life. it’s not school’s life, it’s not work’s life, it’s not your family or your partner’s life—it’s perpetually your life, for better or worse. what do you want from this life? forget happy, what motivates you to live? why are you here?

art will save you, being unreasonably passionate about something niche will save you, letting past sources of joy show you the way back to yourself will save you, earnestness over composure will save you, the natural world will save you, caring for something bigger than yourself will save you, daring to be seen will save you, kindness not as a whim but a principle will save you, appreciation as a practice will save you, daring to try something new will save you, grounding will save you, love will save you, one good nights sleep will save you

i survived a tuesday, and for what? wednesday? disgusting.

in retrospect I should have been a lot meaner to that man.

unfortunately actually being productive and having a routine and leaving my house to be a person in the world and eating real meals consistently does improve my mental health which means i have to keep doing it except i have mental illness that makes me not do it so you see my dilemma

I replied to your message in my head several days ago did you not get it

sometimes life is the most complicated thing ever and you feel like you'll never know peace and then sometimes life is as simple as feeling at peace after sitting on a bench for 30 minutes