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“I wanted to lie next to her so badly, under the stars, a hundred miles from any civilisation, from any distractions. I wanted to just hold her hand in my own, just the contact, the connection that would come from it. Not even s** anymore, but just to feel the warmth from her hand and her soft breathing and the way she would lean into my chest as her icy blue eyes became locked within the stars themselves as my arms hold her.
But I could only imagine her when I’m sure she could imagine more, I was simply standard and she was simply stunning, she had the ability to make any love her and yet I had the ability to only love her. 
My heart may get broken but don’t we all dream for a fairytale?”

“Not everyone deserves your friendship, or your care, or your heart or your love. And some don’t even deserve the words that explain why you’re taking it all back. Even if they deserved your heart and your respect before, it doesn’t entitle them to it forever. Sometimes you have to adjust your behavior based on another’s, even if you were willing to provide that love unconditionally before.”

“You ever just look at somebody and it’s like your soul aches to touch them?”

“Trust yourself. You’ve survived a lot. And you’ll survive whatever is coming.”

If I could run away, I would. Even though I know it won’t solve any of my problems. But I just need a moment to myself. A moment of peace without all the noise of the outside world. Without everyone constantly projecting their expectations on me.