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starting to move things over to the new blog! like this post to plot!! whether we've never interacted ( which is my bad for not being present ) or longtime mutuals that haven't gotten to talk in a hot second about our muses or if we need to figure out something new!

#*❈ ‣ i’m a silly little ninnynoodle — ( ooc. )

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@cannotfly (JOHANNA)

He'd gotten his family up early that Sunday. They normally came down from the lighthouse with enough time for her to enter her church nearly the same as everyone else in town.

Today, however, he had made them get up and get there before everyone. He'd dropped Johanna at the church and put her toddler over his shoulder like a sack of potatoes, confirming that he had her, and simply pointed back towards the church as he walked off with her daughter.

He'd come back when the service had ended, Laura had fallen asleep in the buggy. "You pointed out that green bird in that magazine a yours. One that talks an' all." he said as he walked with her back towards the buggy.

"Sure as hell couldn't get my hands on that. So these'll have to do." he turned then and pulled two tiny chicks that he'd been hiding in his coat. he had had to get to the farmer before they themselves left for church.

She didn't like gifts or flowers. Maybe the little birds would be good enough. "Beans said she'd want them if they ain't good 'nough." he put his hands in his pockets , half expecting her to give the gift of those two little chickens back to him. "You'd been sayin' you was lonely. can't be lonely with all that peepin'. "

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anthony was right in some way, being around people did make her feel a little less lonely. while she hardly spoke to any of them ( nosy people don't deserve their nosy answers ), there is something to seeing other faces. johanna gives thanks to God every day for sending her laura, for sending her riff, a change of scenery is... nice.

❝ you remembered that? ❞ johanna can't stop herself from asking. those magazines are a luxury that anthony always tried to make sure they could afford. she likes the hair. the pictures of the parrots make her miss her childhood birds. the only companions she had for much of her life.

attention shifted to where her daughter was asleep ( those are anthony's eyelashes ), but she soon turned back to riff. before she can berede him for keeping poor little chicks in his pocket, they're in her hands.

and she's completely in love.

little yellow feathers on little wings. the sweetest chirps she's ever heard in her life. heartstrings swell under her chest and johanna can't help but raise them to her cheek. even softer than she could have imagined.

❝ they're perfect, ❞ a low, humble whisper. a bit of protectiveness seeps through, as if she's afraid riff may take them away from her and give them to her daughter. johanna looks back up at him. ❝ are they named? where did you find them? don't ever put them in your pocket again! ❞ but her voice is too full of giddiness. she takes a step closer, daring to bridge to a more intimate distance from each other. ❝ thank you. ❞

#wait did she just fall completely and utterly in love with him #*❈ ‣ have you decided it’s safer in cages‚ singing when you’re told? — ( interaction. )#*❈ ‣ and though my soul will die with you‚ our child will not be left alone to spend a lifetime wondering how — ( v: single mother. )#anyfight #this is not one thousand years old no way (gaslighting)

starting to move things over to the new blog! like this post to plot!! whether we've never interacted ( which is my bad for not being present ) or longtime mutuals that haven't gotten to talk in a hot second about our muses or if we need to figure out something new!

#*❈ ‣ i’m a silly little ninnynoodle — ( ooc. )

one of the worst semesters of my life is finally over!!! i'm home for about a week and depending on things, i may move blogs in a few days and start fresh to try to get back into things!

#i've been playing a lot of the s.ims 4 again since it doesn't work great in my apartment #but i am having a dang gosh blast with it now!!!#*❈ ‣ i’m a silly little ninnynoodle — ( ooc. )#tbd.

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okay i really do miss this hobby and i cherish all the friendships i've made through it and i would like to return... just something that's keeping me is that i honestly don't like t.umblr culture?? this is nothing new, i've talked about how much i hate fa.ndom culture before. it's not because of a certain person or group or anything, i just don't like it. most of the time, it does not uplift me. i feel like i cannot be myself. in real life, i'm a lot more sarcastic and more sassy which doesn't translate to online spaces and that is something i've accepted! it's not anyone's fault, it's literally just something that doesn't work! and that's okay. though, it is a little hard to put on what feels like a face or a front sometimes. i don't know. i can't seem to find a way to be able to balance writing with my friends without the ickiness i feel when i'm actually on this website.

#and just to reiterate: this is nobody reading this's fault!#if you are reading this #you are safe to me! you are a friend to me!#i do intend on moving blogs and making a few more rules to keep my headspace better #but there's some things that can't really be put into rules or anything #i don't mean to make this rant seem so self-pitying or anything #i really don't feel bad! i'm in a good headspace right now #i just am a little.... lost? i guess?#*❈ ‣ i’m a silly little ninnynoodle — ( ooc. )#tbd.

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cheeky little question... which one?

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#perhaps... perhaps if i make a new blog and return.......#which url

cheeky little question... which one?

cannotfly

andpale

darcy's option

Voting ended onApr 5, 2025

#perhaps... perhaps if i make a new blog and return.......#which url

ordinary by a.lex w.arren is actually highkey a johanna & anthony song actually

#when there's religious symbolism that's this pure and beautiful in a song #it automatically belongs to them i don't make the rules #*❈ ‣ i’m a silly little ninnynoodle — ( ooc. )#tbd.

i'm definitely slipping back into my t.hg phase which is poor timing because well. finals + life is real rough right now.

#i can't even write my indulgence right now 😭#*❈ ‣ i’m a silly little ninnynoodle — ( ooc. )#tbd.

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i forgot i made lucy's games the second q.uarter quell

#i am a horrible horrible person #i didn't do it on purpose!! that's just how the flipping timeline worked out #ughhhhhhhh #i may change that though because we have a specific list of who was in those games now #*❈ ‣ i’m a silly little ninnynoodle — ( ooc. )#tbd.

things are kinda bad again. sorry.

@notelasts's arthur donaldson says, “ the sight of you will prove to me i’m still alive . ”

trapped in a pair of too-tight shoes with a little heel, how could anyone feel like anything but a complete and utter fool? young girl at a ball she's perhaps too young to be at. young girl shown off for all to see. the eyes on the white lace decorating her. every guest knows of their friendship, but nobody knows where they're hidden. no one knows their host's ward has tears in her eyes or how she's clutching onto the boy she loves.

tomorrow, she looses him.

❝ i'll do it, ❞ johanna whispers into his chest. ❝ i'll find... i'll find something in this big house and i'll-i'll take it. to them. they'll be some sort of corrupt politician and they won't be able to take you away from me then. ❞ the walls of her bedroom seems to shrink around them. if anyone catches them in here, her guardian will be sure to know about it. johanna can't bring herself to care. there doesn't feel like a safer place to talk to art but here.

what he says makes her shoulders collapse. the rest of her body soon follows. tears are inevitable now. ❝ don't go to europe. ❞ you'll die. ❝ don't leave me. ❞ you'll die. ❝ please. ❞ you can't die.

#i can't exactly remember what we decided about the timing of jo getting married off #and art getting uh sent off #but i wanted to feel deep intense pain #*❈ ‣ have you decided it’s safer in cages‚ singing when you’re told? — ( interaction. )#*❈ ‣ i had this feeling as i was falling the sound across the bay was the sound of you calling — ( v: great gatsby. feat. notelasts )#notelasts #war tw

moved a couple of asks to my drafts and deleting everything else because it was crowded up in there! and i may try to actually reply to them? crazy!

#*❈ ‣ i’m a silly little ninnynoodle — ( ooc. )#tbd.#mayyyyyyyyybe some plotting? if anyone is interested?

kinda really struggling with a lot of things right now and i have no idea how to get back into writing because everything just feels so heavy and i don't have a lot of interest in anything right now but... potentially could we just like talk about our muses? i need a little kick to get me back into things. i think it might help. old dynamics, new dynamics, whatever.

#sorry for being such a pathetic mess as of...... many months now #just a lot is hurting atm #*❈ ‣ i’m a silly little ninnynoodle — ( ooc. )#tbd.

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so so so many thoughts about lucy. i just need to stop being depressed.

#lol i thought i would be over things by now but lol lol lol lol #*❈ ‣ i’m a silly little ninnynoodle — ( ooc. )#tbd.#i know i'm being so annoying but also this is proof i'm alive i suppose

happy birthday miss johanna!!!!

#*❈ ‣ i’m a silly little ninnynoodle — ( ooc. )#tbd.

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