trying to update my posts and retag but tumblr keeps breaking - ok then .. its cool i guess ….

going to watch some videos on the biopsychology ♡ my future girlfriend will be so spoiled by me .. isnt that so silly ? that i’d be the little girl but i wanna spoil to .. its my mom and dad issues for sure ..

i cant even listen to melanies music without feeling bad, her situation reminds me of a situation i had with a girl who harassed me .. she said i was lying and so a lot of people believed her and i never really got a proper apology .. i know that timothy isnt a good person either but im not sure that means she deserved to be taken advantage of .. am i missing anything ? i really miss melanie but i just can’t until i know for sure, its such a weird situation … and then her ‘response’ was genuinely heartbreaking. im so sad because melanie raised me but its like because of my own history i feel bad listening to her music, miss u everyday mom ໒꒰ྀི ◞ ◟꒱ྀིა

i love watching belle delphines room tour ♡

goodnightie , i made a sweet silly album today with my sister, it was a lot of fun ♡ i am feelin very tired .. i will probably stay up to write a little more though. lately ive been writing about love to help soothe me .. i have been thinking about my loneliness a lot lately ( as always .. since the day i gained consciousness ) usually i smoke a lot to keep myself calm .. but i haven’t really been able to lately .. so ive been really prone to panic attacks and things like that .. i feel sad sometimes when i wake up in the morning because its another long day … i really am trying to get better though .. is what i’d say if i was .. i just want to live a cuter and gentler life so i can stay calm .. ♡ keepin stuff i love around me and creating helps me but i love nothing more than being high and listening to music while hugging my plushie ..

the coffin of andy and leyley kind of reminds me of flowers in the attic .. just a bit ♡ dont attack me ..