goodnightie , i made a sweet silly album today with my sister, it was a lot of fun ♡ i am feelin very tired .. i will probably stay up to write a little more though. lately ive been writing about love to help soothe me .. i have been thinking about my loneliness a lot lately ( as always .. since the day i gained consciousness ) usually i smoke a lot to keep myself calm .. but i haven’t really been able to lately .. so ive been really prone to panic attacks and things like that .. i feel sad sometimes when i wake up in the morning because its another long day … i really am trying to get better though .. is what i’d say if i was .. i just want to live a cuter and gentler life so i can stay calm .. ♡ keepin stuff i love around me and creating helps me but i love nothing more than being high and listening to music while hugging my plushie ..

going to watch some videos on the biopsychology ♡ my future girlfriend will be so spoiled by me .. isnt that so silly ? that i’d be the little girl but i wanna spoil to .. its my mom and dad issues for sure ..

i cant even listen to melanies music without feeling bad, her situation reminds me of a situation i had with a girl who harassed me .. she said i was lying and so a lot of people believed her and i never really got a proper apology .. i know that timothy isnt a good person either but im not sure that means she deserved to be taken advantage of .. am i missing anything ? i really miss melanie but i just can’t until i know for sure, its such a weird situation … and then her ‘response’ was genuinely heartbreaking. im so sad because melanie raised me but its like because of my own history i feel bad listening to her music, miss u everyday mom ໒꒰ྀི ◞ ◟꒱ྀིა

the coffin of andy and leyley kind of reminds me of flowers in the attic .. just a bit ♡ dont attack me ..

i want a butch / masc tht doesn’t feel like a girl so i can make her feel like one and then we’d be bonded forever ♡

i never had a baby blanket with my name on it and honestly i think that i would really like that ..