Speaking of Happiness...

Juan Vasques-Davis. He’s a cutie.

And he already has attention competition and he doesn’t know it: the twins.

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Cameron nodded at that. “Yeah, that wouldn’t be a good idea.” He chuckled. “I can talk to Sebastian about that. If you want an apology…” He sighed. “But, I don’t think he’ll take me seriously.” He giggled with that. Cameron nodded. “And I’m really proud of us.” He tapped her hand lightly and smiled wider.

Faye shrugged at that. “Well, that’s what I thought so too, that it should be easier for me to get an internship since I was a fashion student, so when Kurt just appeared with one, like… In Vogue, not being in fashion college, that made me super jealous of him at the time.” She shrugged again. “But that doesn’t matter anymore. As you said, that helped me realize what I wanted, and… Kurt is my cupcake. He’s always gonna be. I don’t know how we can go back to what we were, and either way, I don’t think that saying to him I still don’t like his husband very much isn’t a good start to do that.” She bit her lower lip. Faye smiled as Cameron smiled and used her index finger on the cream on her coffee and licked it from it. “Sounds like we both have solid future career plans.”

Faye pouted. “Kurt was having some problems, and he tried to tell me. But he was hesitant. So I assumed he didn’t want to tell me. And I kind of… I told him he didn’t need to tell me, but it came out like I was dismissing his pain. And there was when everything started.” She looked at Cameron. “And  was really jealous of Kurt. Because I was trying hard to get an internship on fashion and trying to get on NYADA and Kurt got into NYADA and started an internship on Vogue.com. Kurt was basically my male sucessfull version.” She pouted again. “I’m not jealous of him anymore. I have other dreams. And… Well, NYADA was more like… I don’t wanna be an actress… It’s not what I want anymore. But I do think we’re not confidents anymore.” She said and shrugged. Faye smiled. “So you just need you all to… Graduate, basically.” She said.

Faye smiled at Cameron and then sighed. “I don’t… Kurt and I are not the same anymore. And that is my fault.” She windened her eyes. “We’re still friends, but… It feels weird to complain about his husbands’s past actions with him.” Faye sighed again. “Well, maybe we were.” She said. Faye listened to him and sipped on her coffee a little. “And do you have fellow… Doctors you would consider oppening a practice with? Sebastian, when he pass his boards, obviously.” She rolled her eyes and smiled. “Anyone else?”

Faye blinked. “Well, you kissed two guys on our wedding day… Not your fault, really. But I felt like I had the right to kiss a girl to make it even.” She shrugged. “Imaturity much.” She sighed. “And I’m still mad at him. Because he never apologized to me for kissing you once, and for being on my memory kissing you on our wedidng day.” She said. “Me? Do something to Sebastian? He’s the one who has to make amends with me.” She said to the boy. Faye smiled. “So, three more years as a resident and you’ll become a fellow, right?” No more studying and better work hours.” She said.

The girl shrugged. “I’m telling you what’s on the list. I mean… Spontaneous places. We surely have doen it, but we can still do it, you know? And positions, I rather show you… Some day.” She said. Faye pouted. “I already apologized too much for giving the ring back that day… Okay?” She said. “Sebastian kissing  you it’s something I’m still mad at him for. One was on our wedding day. Like… It wasn’t just our day, you know? It was the day Sebastian kissed you, again.” She sighed. Faye thought a little. “If I go normal speed… 2 years.” She said. “If I try to speed it up a little, I can finish in a year and a half.”. “Yes, surely.” She smiled.

Faye raised her eyebrows. “Oh… Okay.” She said. The girl thought a little. “I always imagined that when I started my sex life… I would be spontaneous.” She smiled. “So… When we did it on top of your car… That was spontaneous, and out on the open.” She giggled. “The bathroom was another one I wanted to try out because I had seen at some movies and books, and it sounded… Like it was.” She smiled. “There are some positions I would like to try on…” She continued. Faye pouted. “He shouldn’t have kissed you. Dot.” She said. Faye smiled. “It’d kind of connected to my work… I want to open my own wedding dress business.” She said. “The work is great, I love to help girls to find the right dress. It’s… Fullfilling.”

Faye giggled. “Noel, right.” She said. “What about it what? You wanna know now?” She asked. Faye looked at Cameron as he said her name. “I know… I just… I was too excited about big families and all, but e have a big family.” She said. “I promise you we’ll go back talking about kids… Once we graduate and start working.” She said. Faye smiled widely at that. “Yes, we can do that. Sebastian and Kurt are always with us, and I don’t want it any differently. Well…” She made a pause. “I wished Sebastian has’t kissed you. But that I can’t change.” She said. “And… I think I decided what I’ll do after I gradute too.”

Faye giggled shyly. “It was weird for me too, when I broke the bubble.” She said. Faye raised her eyebrows. “I haven’t told you like… With all the letter, but I mentioned to you, about a list I have.” She said. “It’s not a written list… But a mental one.” Faye pouted as Cameron said that. “Let’s… Try our best to not… Accidentally have another so we can talk about it in the future… To decide it together.” Faye smiled. “Gynechology is great.” She said and then shrugged. “I can come to see you at ht ehospital one day. Or you can do a resident reunion at home, whenever you have a free day.” She smiled.

Faye nooded. “Okay.” Faye sighed. “I thought I needed to. I mean… I had problems that I wans’t even aware of… And… He’s gonna help me externalize what my brain decides to… Hide at some way.” She shrugged. Faye stared at Cameron a little confused as he said that and as he was explaining she smiled nervously. “It makes sense.” She said and held her own hands, so she would do something with them. “I am innocent in many ways.” She looked at him. “I was one of those girls… I teased, but I never let anyone actually have me. It gave me… A sense of control. Of my relationships. The people were with me because they thought they would get something, and I would break up with them once I realized that I could never give them my first time.” She said and looked down. “And I used the same… Thing with you but… You got me Cameron.” She looked back at him and smiled. “I fell for you so fast, and I wanted to experience everything with you. And I knew I couldn’t do that unless I was honesty with you, about my actuall sexual situation at the time. I’m so sorry, I started things like that. It was automatic. Flirt and ennuendos was an automatic reaction of mine.” She sighed again. “But I still wanna experience everything. With you. I’m curious, and I wanna try things.” She shrugged.  The girl looked at him. “Because we have three children already, and we both need to think of our careers now, that we can let the kids on kindergarten. I’m so behind on my course… I need to finish at some point.” She bit her lower lip. “And I know we’re young but… But… I think we should plan to not have more kids. When we are older and stable, we can go back to that but… Then our kids would be older and I don’t think I’ll handle the whole baby phase again.” She said. “Have you decided on a specialty, yet?”

Faye listened to all Cameron said and nodded at everything. He was right. They had to be honesty to each other and sincere. And not hold anything on, so they would not explode again. “Communication, yes. I’ll tell you everything. If I have doubts or if I feel scared. I’ll tell you first and immediatelly.” She said. “I put too much pressure on you. With me not working and letting all the weight of bringing money home on you. And I’m sorry. I was thinking only on my side, how I didn’t feel ready to work, and be away from the kids, and I didn’t stop to think that I needed to make myself ready and that you missed being with them as well.” She said. “I’ve been having a few sessions alone with the psychologist. To figure all my shit out. I think it’s doing me good.” She said and smiled lightly. “You should hate told me… I mean… I was so clueless at that time.” Faye looked down… “Cameron… I’m thinking… Maybe we should plan to not have more kids.” Faye bit her lower lip as he smiled and then smiled back. “You are more relaxed.”