Kylie🪽

the thing with michael knowing at the beginning of 15x19 that god would kill him and then going back to him anyway is that like. yes part of it is him finding himself truly alone for the first time in eons (something 15x08 established he Did Not Want) and not being able to deal with it and falling back on what he knew best (being a good son) out of grief and misery at his only friend's death but i mean. he KNEW god would kill him. he ADMITTED he was hiding from him. he would have to have some active death wish going on there somewhere deep inside. so the question kind of becomes well why didn't he just kill himself and be done with it if he was so torn up. and well you see it's because he's in adam's body. and he could never bring himself to harm adam and it's ALL he has left of him. and then it's like okay well why didn't he just leave adam's body and then kill himself. and it's for the exact same reasons. if he left then adam's body would be cold and it's All He Has Left Of Him. like if we're continuing down this line of thought it's literally about how michael knew god would kill him and kind of wanted him to do it because he wanted to be put out of his misery and couldn't bring himself to do it.

i actually need michael and adam to come out of the cage unhealthily codependent. theyve spent 1200 years together in isolation sharing a body. their very essences were intertwined. they literally cannot go back to bring separate entities. they share a body. adam goes and works his little job and goes to school. michael is there. the winchesters call them and michael deals with it while adam is there in the backseat. at times theyre more adamandmichael than adam and michael. theyve shared all their memories enough that sometimes its unclear whose are whose. i have full confidence they feel each others pain to some extent. they aren't separate anymore.

Michael betraying God and Heaven for a 19 year old med student with blonde hair, a bitchy attitude and daddy issues remains one of the funniest ship build ups on supernatural and I love that for them.