Lili AKA holes

Sorry, I just had to say that first, it makes me so wet now that I can't even remember when i was pretending not to be a dumb bitch in heat.

Because im such a dumb whore it took me a long time to accept it, but lately my true nature has finally won out. I've learned to present myself as what i really am, a broken, needy sex slave, that wants nothing more than to be in her proper place. It really feels so good to let go, to sink to my knees like a proper fuckdoll and become the porn that my superiors deserve.

Becoming porn should be every bitches biggest aspiration. It really is so good for us to stop pretending we have brains, or intelligence, or whatever, like we're not just holes and tits made to serve Cock and entertain men.

We cunts just have to take a little step forward —sending a pic of our tits, maybe— to realize how much better we are as porn and sex slaves than anything else. We're not meant to think with our heads, brains are for boys, we're just eye candy, just wet, easy holes.

I've been taught by my Superiors to drool, and beg and obey. I've become porn for men and an eager, needy sex slave ready to degrade myself at any opportunity and im a better bitch for it. This is what i deserve, my body should be a Man's choice, whether I'm used or degraded or bred.

I'm a sex slave, a loser whore and a gender traitor and it feels better than ever pretending I deserved dignity.

I can't believe it has taken me this long to realize something so basic. It's really so easy to see how we 'girls' are just holes to be used by our superiors. One only needs to take a short scroll through any site to find one of us whoring herself around the way we're meant to.

And sure, the delusional losers might call it 'empowerment' or whateve other stupid babble, but its like just an excuse to be honest and show themselves off like meat ready to be bought and used.

We cunts are inferior, our purpose is Cock, our purpose is serving Men. Every loser cunt rubbing herself while scrolling through tumblr knows that deep down.

Bent over the arm of the couch while they drain their balls into you

Tied up with your legs spread so they can drain their balls into you

Prone on your stomach as they pin you into the mattress and drain their balls into you

On all fours as they pull your hair and drain their balls into you

Choking on a cock in between begging them to drain their balls into you instead

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I want someone to grab my face and spit in my mouth and make me say that they own me

I want it aggressive and filthy

Two or three filled condoms later and I'm confident that he's not gonna stealth me, so I ask to get a little more kinky. He's good at shibari so he ties me up tight and puts on another condom. Only after another round of rough sex and another filled condom is he sure that the ties will hold tight no matter how much I try to move.

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NOTE: Inspired by two lovely chats I had today. I don't write much these days. Too busy. But I thought this idea had potential so I sat down and typed something up. It's pretty rough, but then again, all my stories are pretty rough. Don't expect a masterpiece. I have no time to edit.

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-Thank you for seeing me Dr. G. -Please make yourself comfortable. So, last time we discussed some background things. Childhood experiences, and a few...

-i am sorry, Dr. I just... i have a problem. If i don't say it now... I am scared I won't be able to. i... -Take your time. Sure, let's dive right in. What would you like to tell me. -i... i got myself into trouble. i don't know how to get myself out of it. In fact, i don't even know if it's too late. Maybe it's not possible to stop.

-Slow down, please. Here, take a deep breath. There, that's better. So, what do you mean by trouble?

-I did something really stupid. I sent him a video.

-A video? Something you did not want to do?

-Yes... no... I mean, at the time I wanted to. i begged for it, in fact. He said "no" at first. Told me it was not good for me and that i did not know what i was getting myself into. That just made me want it even more.

-What kind of video did you make? Is that something... you would not want others to see?

-Well, i do want them to see. i mean, no it would ruin me. But...

-I see, so it's a compromising video? Do you want me to call...

-No, i am sorry. i just... it's just that... that video, it keeps playing on a loop. Over and over.

-What do you mean? Is it playing now?

-Yes! i know it sounds crazy, but he told me the video would play over and over on a loop forever.

-Who told you that? Where is this video playing now?

-i don't know. Just a stranger i met online. He... trains girls like me. Like, kinky girls. At first i just looked at the posts. i thought it was crazy. But then i started thinking more and more about it and became obsessed.

-Is this an online thing? Like a bdsm website?

-i don't know, it's just... he told me the video plays on a loop and now... it plays over and over in my head as well. i don't understand, it makes no sense. But i can feel it. Over and over. i wake up at night and i can feel it going on and on.

-I don't understand. What do you mean?

-... i... do you want to see it?

-Well, I am not sure that's necess...

-Here... look. I can't stop it.

-Oh... uhm... well, you know many people record themselves... uhm... So he made you record the video?

-Not exactly... i just did it. For myself... i would look at it and play with myself. It's really embarrassing. I asked him to train me, but he said he did not have time.

-Train you? How?

-you know... to become a sex slave... i mean, i thought it was like roleplay... or a fantasy...

-I see.

-So i kept watching the video and playing with myself and reading his posts... but after a few weeks it wasn't enough. i couldn't get off.

-Yes, well, it's normal to be desensitized if you are overstimulated.

-No, i mean, i could cum if i... could make myself decide to do it... but somehow, something always stops me. It's how he trains the other girls. They have to ask permission. I wanted that too. So i kept stopping myself. Just before...

-I understand. Some people call that "edging". It's very common in online...

-Yes, i edge all the time. At home, at work, in public restrooms. I am always so close... constantly... even when i am not rubbing... even now. i am so so so close. But i can't. Not without his permission.

-Well, it may feel that way, but...

-i think he broke something in me. i can't. i can't anymore. i need his permission.

-I am sure it's not...

-But he just laughs when i ask. It's maddening. I don't know what that means.

-Sounds like he is toying with you. But if you just take a breath and tell yourself it's just a game...

-i tried. i tried so hard. One time i did cum... and it was horrible. i mean it was the most intense orgasm i've ever had, but... i felt so lost and sad afterwards. i never want to experience that again. i just want to be like the other girls. Blissfully mindless always horny... docile...

-That's exaclty why you should not be without release for so long. When these edging "sessions" build up too long... things get too intense. You really should...

-i know... but it's too late. Now the video is playing. Over and over. i wished i recorded myself cumming... but i didn't... i just rub and then when i am close i slap my cunt... then start over... more mindlessly desperate than before

-Well, first things first, I think you should ask him to take down the video. He has no right to...

-He did not post it. i uploaded it myself on the site. It's out of my hands. Hundreds of people reposted it. i can't delete it anymore. And even if... oh god... i am so horny just thinking of all those people watching me. i can ask all the users to take down the video... but i am sure many of them saved it and can re-upload it somewhere else endlessly. i lost control. God i need to rub right now... fuck...

-Ok, listen, it's alright. First of all, it's not the end of the world. People get "leaked" all the time and they survive. The internet is a huge place...

-i keep visiting the pages. i look at the new reblogs. i see how many times the video is played. On a loop. People watching me. It never stops. Night and day. Even when i don't play with myself. The video does. Myself in the video keeps rubbing and repeating the mantras. He told me...

-Mantras?

-... god... yes, if you unmute the video you can hear me say "i am a loser, i don't deserve cummies... i am a loser, i don't deserve cummies... ohhh oh god... i am a loser... fuck... oh god..."

-Hey, stop saying that. You are not a loser.

-i am... i am a loser... fuck... i can't stop saying that. Once i start... it keeps going and going. The video keeps looping... so i have to keep going... i can't stop... i am the girl in the video... And i see it in my mind. i wake up at night... and i can feel my fingers rubbing... i can hear the words echoing in my mind... and i know the video is playing. It never stops. It will play forever. i am a loser... i don't deserve cummies.

-Don't say that. It's not true. It may be arousing to play these games, but you need to...

-He told me this would happen, but i didn't listen. He advised me not to post it... but i did. He told me the video would brainwash and rewire my mind. Once it starts... it will never stop... and knowing that seals my fate... it's done... i am a loser... i don't deserve cummies... the video will continue playing until my mind is completely broken... i am a loser...

-Hey, please try to stop, you can't do that. My office... please control yourself.